I was sick last week and I am sick again this week. I did not go to work yesterday because I was down with a bad migraine due to *ehemmm* woman’s time of the month. If I can take leave for one whole week, I would, not only to rest but also to kill my super free time in the office.

I should have done my training last year so that I could enjoy my holidays this year. Too late to regret as we can’t turned back time. =(

WHAT IF I did not meet you in the first place, will I be happier now?

WHAT IF I had done better, will I be here now?

WHAT IF I hadn’t gone there, will I be like this now?

WHAT IF I had never started in the first place, will I be better off now?

Sometimes, I wonder what life is like if all the “What Ifs” were true.

Am I a bad friend?

Am I a bad daughter?

Am I a bad girlfriend?

Am I a bad person?

I hate myself most of the times for what I have done but I couldn’t stop myself from doing it earlier. Life’s always full of regrets, is just the matter of whether can you leave it and learnt from it or will it haunt you instead to make your life worst? For me, I have learnt from my regrets/mistakes but of course there are still some mistakes we often make though we know we shouldn’t.

I love to chat with older people because I believe their experienced in life are of course much greater than mine. Some maybe some may not. The phrase “It’s easier said than done” it’s always true. I had experienced it many times. Whether is it studies, or love, or safety or whatever! We always learn our lesson when it has already happened and then we fear it.