You

You know why i can't study? Its because of you who neglects me lately, because of you saying you're sien of me, beause of you who don't put me as your first priority anymore. If you think that you're right and think again. It won't take you long. Sometimes I feel you've changed but you think I'm crazy if i ever tell you that. You don't used to be someone who I once knew and who i wanted to be with. Last time you will volunteer, now i must beg. WHY? Did i did something wrong to you that you hate me so much. If you really hate me so much, then why continue? Why you always lie to me that you love me when i asked you?

Sometimes I wonder whether you're getting more bored with me cuz I don't study or maybe cuz I'm stupid. If you do, meaning you don't love me for who I am. Everytime I see you with your friends I get very jealous, beacuse you seems to be happier with them than with me..You don't know how I feel sitting next to you when you're laughing along with you friend but when you're with me, you just keep quiet till i bring up a conversation.

Sometimes you make me feel so sad till I don't know where I stand in your heart. Everything that I asked for is so hard to be done but when your friends ask for it. it's just a simple "yes". When I wanna watch the movie, it's usually "no" because you have so much thing to do, but when your friends asked, straight away the answer is "yes". WHY? You know I love you so much that I am willing to follow your flow without complaining. But I don't know how long can I stand. Please don't blame me if I ever leave you one day.

Everyday I try my best to be a better person so that you will not find me sien. But I realized the more I try, the worst it gets. Because of you treating me like that. I had to find another girlfriend of mind to be my company. Someone who can share my problems with. You used to be that person, but now I find it hard to tell you stuff, cuz u always act like you're not listening. You are not that guy that I used to love 8 months ago. You were very different then.

WHY did you change? Is it because you feel that I'm stupid, or maybe you feel I'm getting uglier, or maybe you don't want me anymore. Everytime when I wish you were there for me, but you weren't. I always tell myself, maybe you are very busy studying, so don't disturb him but then I realize I'm just lying to myself to be happy. Inside me, I know you're not so into me anymore like you used to. I always thought you weren't that tyoe of guy, but you proof me wrong. I'm here now to give you a chance to proof me wrong. Show me that you still love me not just saying it. I'm not complaining, but I just want you to realize that I'm unhappy and what I feel. If I'm given one wish, I would prefer you to be you last time.

You know I love you very much, but why do you take me for granted? You know I'm willing to do anything for you no matter what your answers are, but don't you feel evil sometimes? You know something that I have not tell you lately? Call me stupid, but no matter how much pain I'm going through, there is only YOU in my heart.

-I LOVE YOU-