Exam Stress Is Over!

And so the title says, exams are over. I have less stress now until the 13th when the results are gonna come out. Anyway, although it's been a stressful 3 weeks, but I will definitely miss those weeks. I miss going to Mcd almost every night to study and one day before a paper, I used to stay up very late together with alex and sometimes with cher studying all the way till 4 and only having 3 hours of sleep. Pimples start popping out like nobody's business and my face look so dead now. Look like a old aunty.haha!

As for now, I will take a break from Mcd. Enough of Mcd maybe until the next semester begins. This is the first time through out my schooling time, till SAM, till uni, I'm so stressed out till I break down into tears. I never felt like that before. Maybe this year is really though. Honestly I regretted taking engineering, but I can't turn back time now, I must finish this no matter how difficult it takes.

Anyway, throughout exams and late night studies, SHIT happened. There was one night where I came back around 2 something in the morning after studying in Mcd, while I was on the way up in the lift to my 6th floor, i fucking bump into a flasher. This fucker got down on the 3rd floor and while walking out of the lift, he flash his fucking cock to me. Being "quite" calm, in my heart I was like what the fuck are you trying to do but at the same time scared, I still managed to spray the fucking pepper spray at him, but he managed to avoid it. Stupid blardy bastard, fucking sex maniac, nothing better to do is it? The next time I see him I will spray the pepper spray on his cock instead, FUCKER! watch out man!

From now on, if I come back late nights, I will either put a night in cher's house or chin huang's hse or either as chin huang to overnight in the apartment. This place, Lagoon Perdana is fucking scary. Even now the lights in the lift aren't working, only one is lighted up and the lift is dim.

Tonight, I did nothing much only when to 1U jalan-jalan. Wanted to watch a movie, but the time are not suitable, then we went to play snooker with Alex instead. After that when to it "lut-lut" and I'm having stomach ache now, I wonder is it because of the "lut-lut"? sigh..

For this holiday, I will be going to singapore with my friends.Yay! A good break finally. Away from stress and problems. Was supposed to plan to go to bali, but because I decided to shop with my spiff, I cancelled the trip to bali and will only go another time. Too bad this time the spiff isn't as good as the previous one, so things that I wanna do are more constraint. LOL~~

Enough said, without exam there's no stress, but sometimes is boring when I come to think about it. Sometimes a little stress is good. At least it lights up my life a little. HAHA! Now I have to plan how to fill my time till the next semester begins.

More to come on the next blog. I'm sleepy now, need to catch up with my sleep! GOOD NIGHT!!!

Big girls don't cry

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
La Da Da Da Da Da

I love this song so much. Don't know why, but just love it. Anyway it's dedicated to a friend of mine. =)

A day away yet still dreaming

It's only one and the half day away from my first paper, and I'm still have time to blog. I don't know why I can make myself concentrate during the day but my brains can work better during the night. In short, I can only study well at nights. Last night till 3am I was in McD ss15 studying with my friends. I can't afford to this everynight cuz my exams are still a long way go till the 25th June.

If I sleep late every night, one fine day I will fall sick and cannot afford to fall sick if I want to pass all my papers. That's the problem with last minute studying. Every time when I study towards exams are coming, I will tell myself "next time must study earlier then don't have to struggle till like that" but somehow it won't happen.

Semester after semester I've been repeating the same old routine. DAMN~! Is there anyone that can suggest me a better way of forcing myself to study? sigh... I know i know, I play too much also but that's just me lar..as long study and pass can already, don't need to score so high. It's not a good attitude though!

Resolution

My resolution for these two months is to SLIM down. And mark my words, I WILL!!
-shit i must no matter what although these 3 days, I've been eating good food...- haha

Crazy In Love

I'm so crazy in love these few days. Not with boys but with shopping. Lately, I've been doing shopping a lot as compared o other years, and what's worst, they are all expensive. OMG, I need to cut down before I declare myself bankrupt! Haha...

Here are a lst of things I bought for the past one month:

1. Naf Naf dress
2. La Primavera Heels
3. Lewre Sandals
4. MNG spagetti stripe
5. Blouse from Top shop
6. ELLE handbag
7. Tube top from Top shop
8. Yin & Yang dress
9. 2 Esprit T-shirt
10. Arnold Palmer T-shirt
11. Skirt from Tribeca
12. One long top from some side stalls in Subang Parade

My total bill just buying all those came up to about RM1200. Haha..crazy..When I look at it, I don't believe myself after calculating my receipts!

Lately I've been buying bottles and bottles of nail polishes too. And some make up lar...Maybe I'm trying to be a real girl already..cuz I'm officially turning 21 in hmm let me see... 2 months 14 days time ..lol~~~

Conclusion: I NEED TO CONTROL AND START SAVING. If unless I have sponsors I will continue... =)

Besides the crazyness of shopping, I'm trying to diet also so that I can fit into all my clothes which I can't wear last time..forcing myself to lose weight. I already made deals with certain friends, trust me, the next sem, you'll see me slimmer than before.. haha (I better hope so!) ;)

Boring

When it comes to studying it's always boring. I wonder why/ Maybe I'm just not interested in it. Honestly, I can't wait to work and earn my own money. Most of my friends fear of working but I'm not. I wonder why again. Am i that weird? I feel that working life suites me better than studying. But now no matter what I have to force myself to study just to get the degree and then I can continue with life.. ha~~ that's my plan..faster study finish, faster work..

Coming to think about working, I don't think I will end up working as what I'm studying. I don't enjoy engineering that much. And if I'm given a chance, I would had major in marketing and finance. But it's too late already. Nevermind, when I work, I still have the slight chances. haha~~

Sometimes when some juniors asked me should they study engineering, I will advise them, if you're not a hardworking person, better not! It's true..in this course you can't get lazy, you barely have time to get lazy, if you're lazy you'll end up strugling like me. 2 weeks before exam getting scared and worried and over-stressing myself.

Anyway, I have to end now. I seriously need to get back to study before I fail another paper..

chao~~

Ramdom

I'n so boring that i've started blogging again. At least ppl whom I hardly see will know what's going on with me.. haha..

Anyway, I was suppsoe to study since finals are approaching but I can't seem to focus well. What I'm doing now is planning for my hols more than paying attention while studying.. NAUGHTY ME!I know I know, will start paying attention, if not I'll fali again like 2 sems ago..better hope and pray hard not!

Talking about hols, it will be here soon once my exams are over. Since it's for 3 weeks, I think I'll try to find a lot of thing to do, i.e. going to singapore, genting, cameron highlands and maybe crazy enough bali...that depends how much of $$$ i've got..haha...any sponsors?

Well, I better get back to my book world before I dream further..

tata!!~~

You

You know why i can't study? Its because of you who neglects me lately, because of you saying you're sien of me, beause of you who don't put me as your first priority anymore. If you think that you're right and think again. It won't take you long. Sometimes I feel you've changed but you think I'm crazy if i ever tell you that. You don't used to be someone who I once knew and who i wanted to be with. Last time you will volunteer, now i must beg. WHY? Did i did something wrong to you that you hate me so much. If you really hate me so much, then why continue? Why you always lie to me that you love me when i asked you?

Sometimes I wonder whether you're getting more bored with me cuz I don't study or maybe cuz I'm stupid. If you do, meaning you don't love me for who I am. Everytime I see you with your friends I get very jealous, beacuse you seems to be happier with them than with me..You don't know how I feel sitting next to you when you're laughing along with you friend but when you're with me, you just keep quiet till i bring up a conversation.

Sometimes you make me feel so sad till I don't know where I stand in your heart. Everything that I asked for is so hard to be done but when your friends ask for it. it's just a simple "yes". When I wanna watch the movie, it's usually "no" because you have so much thing to do, but when your friends asked, straight away the answer is "yes". WHY? You know I love you so much that I am willing to follow your flow without complaining. But I don't know how long can I stand. Please don't blame me if I ever leave you one day.

Everyday I try my best to be a better person so that you will not find me sien. But I realized the more I try, the worst it gets. Because of you treating me like that. I had to find another girlfriend of mind to be my company. Someone who can share my problems with. You used to be that person, but now I find it hard to tell you stuff, cuz u always act like you're not listening. You are not that guy that I used to love 8 months ago. You were very different then.

WHY did you change? Is it because you feel that I'm stupid, or maybe you feel I'm getting uglier, or maybe you don't want me anymore. Everytime when I wish you were there for me, but you weren't. I always tell myself, maybe you are very busy studying, so don't disturb him but then I realize I'm just lying to myself to be happy. Inside me, I know you're not so into me anymore like you used to. I always thought you weren't that tyoe of guy, but you proof me wrong. I'm here now to give you a chance to proof me wrong. Show me that you still love me not just saying it. I'm not complaining, but I just want you to realize that I'm unhappy and what I feel. If I'm given one wish, I would prefer you to be you last time.

You know I love you very much, but why do you take me for granted? You know I'm willing to do anything for you no matter what your answers are, but don't you feel evil sometimes? You know something that I have not tell you lately? Call me stupid, but no matter how much pain I'm going through, there is only YOU in my heart.

-I LOVE YOU-

ONE MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY

My previous post was just about dear celebrating my birthday for me. This one now, is about my great friends whom brought more fun into my birthday this year. At 11 hours 59 minutes 59 seconds, 20th august 2006, was the last minute of my birthday.

Earlier this morning, I was just staying at home so boring. Chat with su-lyn, weng wai, ling ying and complaint to yoong kang that is so boring and he asked back, "birthday also so boring ar?". Then was chatting with wei leng and I actually asked her "what day is today ar?" she answered, "what day?" I said, "my birthday la!" then she said, "don't lie"..hahaha..then nevermind, dear came over twice, once was to pass me my lunch then he left 10 minutes later to fetch his sister from piano class and the other one was to pass water to me. Before he passed the water to me, I called him and asked him where was he, he said he was on the way to edwin's house to return back some money. Then I was wondering, wah~~so free to run here and there ar? He took a on hour nap when he left back to home at 4pm and said he'll bring me out for dinner later.

Okay, being as blur as usually wei leng can be, maybe this time I'm more blur. Firstly, everything was already planned. Everyone's acting skills were very good. I give you all an A++. Chat with su-lyn, she never mentioned anything about celebrating my birthday, chat with ling ying also like that, chat with weng wai also something like that, just telling me, "ok, I need to go out, chat later" then chat with yoong kang, he can tell me, "oklar, have to go out already, bye bye!" Chat with wei leng somemore never wish me and keep talking about her eric c (sorry lar didn't read your blog till now). And most of all, my dear. Full of drama, when I called him in the afternoon before he passed me the water, he told me he was on the way to edwin's house when actually he was together with weng wai still searching for my cake that I wanted to eat so much. Then in the evening when I was waiting for him to come I messaged him and ask where was he, he said he was on the LDP highway, damn jan, when actually he was already at uni waiting for the rest to come before he can come and fetch me, after fetching me, he pretend to ask where I want to eat and when I said don't know, he came out with an idea, let's eat thai food, spicy somemore. I was like OK.

While searching for parking, he was acting weird when I suggested to use the road that will pass by the restaurant and after parking and while walking to the restaurant, I turned my head and saw my friends, weng wai, su-lyn, ling ying, yoong kang, benjamin, tee yen and aik hoong all sitting down on the table. The moment I entered, weng wai and the rest were like, "eh how come you all here? wah so ngam we eat in the same place! and got extra chair somemore!" hahahaha, you guys really made my day. At the dinner table, dear told me, cannot find you "Suchan" cake shop lar. I was like nevermind lar, any cake also can, don't have to purposely be that particular one but in the end, it was the TIRAMISU CAKE FROM SUCHAN! Hmm, how many more surprises you want to give me baby? haha

Thanks to wei leng for coming though you showed up late and for tee yen for turning up though you are not feeling well. To ben who had to sacrifice his MAN U game and for eating so much that MAN U managed to score so many goals. and of cuz to the rest also. It's ok, halim if you can't make it. calling me "jie jie" in your message is already touching enough also! haha. everyone, THANK YOU THANK YOU!! muaks muaks

I guess, my special birthday brought luck to some people. Wei Leng, you wont a N73 handphone and baby, you won't kinda alot in poker!! I hope I'll always be everyone's lucky charm. ;)

Having you all as my friends are already one great present to me every single year. Without you guys, I don't know what will everyday be like. =) You guys will be in my heart no matter what. Love you guys!!

And last but not least, having chin huang as my boyfriend is also the greatest gift for me. I love you!

p/s: but guys, you still owe me my present! but I also can't think what is out there for you all to buy for me already when the best are all in front of me!

Happy Birthday to ME

Well, yes, as the title says, it's my birthday today. My dear wanted to be the earliest to celebrate my birthday, so we celebrated yesterday. He brought me to Victoria Station and later, went for the movie "Click" together with Weng Wai nd Halim. It was a nice movie. Worth watching! I cried at certain parts of the movie. Touching yet funny. After movie, baby fetch me back, had a slow drive so when the clock strike 12am, he will be the first to wish me face to face. Yay! Guess what was my present from him?? A beautiful lovable necklace from diamond and platinum. I like it very much. Thank you very much, Chin Huang dear. *smiling*


Every birthday, will be a memorable one because it has its special memories. But this year, will be extra special. Celebrating with the one I LOVE and the one that meant a lot to me. That special person itself can be my birthday present already. I wish there will be more of these birthdays in years to come. Thank you very much for everything, dear.

Tired me

FIRST OF ALL, SORRY WEI LENG, DON'T GET JEALOUS LAR, I HAVE NOT DON'T MUCH THING WITH YOU BESIDES TALKING ON THE PHONE THAT'S WHY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT YOU! -anyway, should be proud that your name appeared already!!!-

Anyway, I slept for 10 hours on Thursday night. So damn tired. Dear fell sick yesterday but got worst the next day. So pity of him. He has not recovered yet till today. Maybe I'm not very good at looking after him but I did my best. lol. Well, I hope he gets well soon lar, before I end up getting sick again.

The day dear started to get sick, he got trap in bad lucks too. Pityful but funny when come to think about it. Got sort of scolding from mum early in the morning, a saman later in the morning, he was my partner in Digital Systems Lab, and we had to like do some experiment to find out the result. So we had to use this electrical component called and IC and can u imagine we connected the circuit for like 3-4 times and changes 3 ICs and the 3 ICs that was changed are all spoilt. OMG, really man, things like that barely happen, but it did, to us. *sigh* But nevermind lar, it's already over dear! hahahaha!

Work, work, work and more work

It's only the second week of the semester, but the loads of work, omg, it's getting more! We have maths tute to finish up, digital system preliminary work to be done before class, and also tute, then we have to discuss about our mechatronics project cause we need to pass up a proposal by next week. Adding to it, I have to study mechanics since I'm gonna retake the deffrered examination paper in August. So many things to do, so little time. Lucky I'm studying with my dear, so still got time to spend together while studying, if not, I can't imagine how to find time for one another. So now, we study and at the same time appreciate the time we spend together. Come to think about it, though it might be tiring, but worth it. =p

I realised my pimples are popping more and more these few days. Damn it! Its irritating! Maybe I should start eating proper food and not junk food and force myself to shit everyday!

Can't think of what to write already! So, adios!

Bye bye first week

Well, so fast the first week of the 2nd semester is already gone. My oh my, can you imagine how fast time past. This first week is mostly like a honeymoon week for most of us since there are only lectures. (ok i admit for mostly me and dear, it's seriously honeymoon week) But by next week we MUST be serious (mark my words for this) We have to, in order to try to overload the next semester. Anyway, everyday is a happy day for me as I spent most of the time with my dear. I'm so happy!! And I hope you are too, dear.

Today, I went shopping with my dear. The happiest shopping spree ever because I shopped together with my boyfriend for the first time. You won't want to know how much did both of us spent in *let me think* 4 hours. (secret, not going to tell). But hell, it was a lot. He bought himself 4 shirts, one shorts and a pair of slipper. I bought myself, 4 tops, one belt, a pair of slipper and one set of lingerie. More shopping to come, but not at the moment, broke already, maybe next year only la, when got more money. haha. But we did had a fun time carrying so many shopping bags and trying all kinda clothes. We went back home to nap for a while before we went out to have dinner. At 9, we went to ss2, the same restaurant that we had our lunch together with our uni friends for dinner again. Dear likes the "La Mien" (handmade noodles) there. I like it too!

Supposedly, we had to meet up with weng wai and halim, but half way while driving, dear's friend called him and asked whether they want to meet up to yum cha in sri hartamas along with dear's ex-gf. Sorry to weng wai, we had to ffk him and went to meet up with chin huang's friends in hartamas instead. My heart beat a little fast as I had to meet his ex-gf. I didn't really mind but at first I was afraid that he mind. Lucky he didn't also la, but yet, I still felt weird. But anyway, after meeting up, I was okay la. Hope he is too =p (Dear, I believe you are).

Well, here's a message for dear chin huang (which might make you guys *shiver* again):
Dear, no matter what happens, I will still love you. Though you make me worried for a while and sometimes made my heart stopped beating for a second, I will still love you. Nothing's going to change my feelings towards you. You will remain as the guy I love most for as long as it can. I won't say forever but I will just say for as long as I'm alive and I hope you will too. I TRULY LOVE YOU, CHEN CHIN HUANG. =)

Haze is back

Oh no! The god damn haze is back! When the haze comes, my health turns bad also. I hate that! I was sick last week. Somehow or rather recovered after 1 week plus cause I went to see the doctor. Today, my stomach is playing games with me. I'm feeling very uncomfortable. I don't know why. I just vomitted though, but stomach still very very uncomfortable. Blardy haze! Don't know where the hell's burning again.

Since I'm retaking my Mechanics, so my dear gave me my first "tuition" lesson today. He's good at this subject so he will teach me. =p

Things were as usual as every other day. Dear came to fetch me for class, had lunch, then went to ss15 to collect his money (world cup betting) and came back home to rest. Had mamak food for dinner. Maybe that is one of the cause for my uncomfortable stomach. =(

Hope I will feel better tomorrow~~~~

Maths lecture never fun

As usual, my dear will come visit every morning before we go out unless we have early lectures at 8am then he will pick me up straight and head to uni. After having enough of sleep, at 11 plus we met up with weng wai and soon heng to have lunch. We ate dim sum! *yum yum*. Afterthat, we had a ONE HOUR miserable Maths lecture. As usual, couldn't catch what he said. He is moving real fast like the "MRT" train in Singapore. So fast la "ah pek" cannot catch up with your speed. We students are just as fast as the "KTM" and you are moving as fast as the "MRT" where can? So much difference la! Anyway, the one hour managed to pass by and by 3pm, my usual group including dear played futsal. Me always being the only girl there will sit and wait and watch. Thus with the fucking weather which is so hot, alamak, is damn hot. Though I'm not playing, I'm also sweating like hell.

An hour and the half had passed, and the game is finally over. By the time, my shirt is already almost wet. Sweating, sweating, sweating. I hate sweating. Anyway, who does? Came back home, slept for a while, when for dinner. Felt a little bit fat, so started cleaning the whole apartment as a form of exercise. haha. Now I'm feeling tired and I'm going to sleep maybe after blogging or latest by 12am. I have 8am lecture tomorrow. I hope dear will be able to wake up. Not like Monday again. Called him at 8am and he just got up, thinking that I'm conning him that is 8am, but actually I'm not! Hallo, is really 8am la dear! Better make sure your alarm clock will work properly this time ha!

Second Year Second Semester

And so, Chin Huang and I had been together for about a week already. He seems to be the guy I dream of, well, let's hope he is. =)

Anyway, my first class starts today at 8am in the morning, thanks to my dear, we were late cause he couldn't get up! But forgiven cause he was working for the last two days of holidays (I accompanied him from 3pm till he finishes work which was around 9pm). He had to accompany me after working and fetch me back home to Klang on Sunday, practically, he didn't had enough of sleep. Well, lucky we were late for the damn lecture. My friends who were there in the lecture hall waiting to listen to the FIRST lecture was turned down, cause practically, MONASH is still finding a lecturer for this subject! WTF? We paid RM15,000++ to wait for them to find us a lecturer? That's real great! MUM, Good Job!

The next lecture was Digital Systems which starts at 11am-1pm. I couldn't catch what the hell he said in lectures. Firstly he didn't want to use the mic, maybe he thinks his voice was powerful and loud enough, but actually, it's so damn difficult to listen to what he is saying. He sounds like his mumbling to himself more than passing the facts on to the students. Quarter way through the lecture, one students shouted and asked him to use the damn microphone and lucky he finally did, but yet, he couldn't catch much of our attention. Gone, one lecture down that doesn's capture our interest!

Next was Mathematics B. Thought it would be okay, but OMG, our lecturer is like some "ah pek" who might be around 60 or a little less. He can't pronounce "r" properly. So, words like "very" becomes "vely", "engineering" becomes "engineeling". Walau, typical Chinaman pronounciation!! But still can be lecturer. Dear said, maybe if we find him personally, we should ask him to speak chinese instead. lol!

Anyway, the first day of class wasn't that interesting. Hope it won't get worst.

Girl with a broken smile has RETURN happy again

I'm reminiscing back where I first fell for this guy and after a while i stop having feelings for him and then had feelings for him again when he started showing signs that he likes me too. He used to be a close of friend of mine, whom i share all my secrets with him. Happiness and sadness. Though friends, we looked like couple cuz sometimes we act like one. When people ask, are you couples, we smile and say NO! But after a year, WE are now OFFICIALLY couples. Yes. On the 10th July 2006, last day of world cup where Italy won, Chin Huang and me (Yuen) became couples. I'm not trying to be bossy, but I'm just happy. Surprising?! Nah, everybody already expected but it was just a matter of time. For me, i never thought it will come so soon. But nevermind la, he's already my boyfriend now, and yes when people ask, i can comfortably say YES. I have not been with a boy whom i really like since I broke up with pei fei. After pei fei, my other relationships were like "flings". Come, come, go , go.

But this one, is someone whom i really like. I knew him for a little bit more than a year before we got together as couples. Someone who like me for half a year before he dare to take the chance to be my official boyfriend. I do not know what other words can replace "happy" but i am very happy. A girl who had a broken smile has now found back her smile again. And i hope this time it will last. I'll mark my words for that. All my close friends will know how happy am i and maybe him too la. Especially yk whose listen to my ups and downs story which sometimes makes him go crazy and always say i'm full of shit. Thinking back, hell yes i am! lol!

I'm grateful that now i'm finally together with him. No worries that he will get a gf before me. What happens in the future, that, i'll think later. For the time being, i'll just stay happy and enjoy.

Dear, if you are reading this, you mean a lot to me and you make me happy. I love you very much, chen chin huang. =) (sorry to others, if this sounds "yok ma". haha but when people is in love you know la.)

Plain nonsense

When i named my blog "life of an ordinary teenager" it really is. everyday, is plain boring. the daily routine repeats and usually, nothing interesting happen. i'm gonna repeat what i said in my previous blog. life's boring! i wonder why huh? could it be because i don't know how to enjoy life? or maybe my life's coming to an end (fuck! i'm starting to talk rubbish again) anyway, don't worry nothing's wrong with me. maybe because it's so boring that i can't think of what to say!

Everyday, everyone has something to do. I also do. Early in the morning, I fetch my mum to work, then come back, continue sleeping, go out have lunch, meet friends for either shopping or a movie, then eat then come back, have dinner with parents sometimes with friends then watch tv and then sleep. this routine repeats everytime i'm on holiday.

Sometimes it's plain wondering. Well, i used to drive up practically EVERYTIME to find my friends. One day my mum said, why can't your friends come down? i couldn't answer her and just smiled. come to think about it, yeah why cant they come down when i can go up? morover i'm a GIRL. from pj going to sri petaling is almost as far as from pj coming down to klang right? is i can go up to kl, people from kl also can come down to klang right? morover they have their own car and i don't! i usually have to borrow my mum's car when i want to go out. nevermind la, no point complaining. cause no one understands. anyway, as long everyone happy can already! Even more, when people from Malacca is willing to drive down to Klang to pay a visit so i'm wondering why the fuck KL people can complain?

Let's hope for this holiday to over soon! =p

Back for good I hope

Yes, I’m back, blogging again. Feeling very bored this few days that’s why.

Have you ever reached to a stage in your life where you feel everything around you is boring? Well, I did. I suddenly feel everything around me is so boring which means life’s getting boring. When I was 17, I dream to club every night, begging my mum to allow me to club, but when I started clubbing, I find it boring now. When I was in my teens, girls crave to have boyfriends, so do I, but now I crave to be single. When I was younger, I dream to shop everyday, now I find it boring to shop everyday. Watching movie last time was like something great, now it’s like a daily routine. When I just got my license, I’ll do anything just to drive, but now, I want a driver. Before, I wanted to stay out so much, now I rather be back home. More, I wanted much freedom, now I have it, I rather give it back. I’m only 20, but why am I finding certain things a so boring already? I’m not even half way through life and I’m already complaining life’s boring. I sometimes wonder what’s wrong with me. But never mind, I’ll wait and see what’s more to come or me. =p

I just came back from Cameron Highlands. 5 years ago, my parents used to go up to Cameron at least 5 times a year, but now since I’m grown up, only once or twice a year. Well it was okay, the weather was fucking cold in the night and during the day the cool wind was fucking strong. I ate a lot as usual, especially sweet potatoes, fried sweet potatoes my favourite! Hope I didn’t put on much weight. I was sick a month ago for one month, and now I’m sick again, but not the worst yet (which I hope not) I’m having slight sore throat, cold and cough. If I ever get sick for a month again, I think I will shrink till no one will recognise me.

Recently, all my mind can think about is, shopping, shopping, shopping and shopping. Will anyone volunteer to be my sugar daddy? Haha. The next think on my mind is results, results and results. I just praying hard and hoping for the best to happen! God bless me!

I'm blind and invisible

I'm sick for more than a week already, but have not recover yet...i'm having a very bad sorethroat, adding to that, my cough is here now, so my throat is even more hurt...i've been coughing very very badly for the past few days, especially in the night, that tonight, i could already taste blood in my throat...

do i need to actually cough blood out and get admitted to a hospital, then only someone will realise that i'm actually sick? or maybe i should cough till i die, then only someone will realise that i'm suddenly no where to be seen...friends come friends go, and only when i'm in need, i can see who are my real friends...friends who really care for you, friends who are really in great help when you need one and most important of all, friends who accept you for who you are...

maybe, i'm fucking invisible to someone's eyes...i was never appeared in that person's eyes before, i'm blind for all these while, i always thought it was like that, but it never was, it was all the while the opposite of what i was thinking..i was blinded in the beginning..but blessing in disguise, i realised and came to a stop...i woke up from my "dreamland" and i stopped everything...i don't want to care anymore, i don't want to waste my effort on something that i know will never happen...

NOW, i wanna recover from my cough and bad sorethroat soon, so that i can start focussing and achieve my goal, at least i know if i study hard enough, i will be and earn what i want in future, better than putting hope in something that i know i will never get..

if you regret one day, don't come back to me cuz for me, when it's gone, IT'S GONE...life's never a beautiful one, until you find what you really want...