And so the title says, exams are over. I have less stress now until the 13th when the results are gonna come out. Anyway, although it's been a stressful 3 weeks, but I will definitely miss those weeks. I miss going to Mcd almost every night to study and one day before a paper, I used to stay up very late together with alex and sometimes with cher studying all the way till 4 and only having 3 hours of sleep. Pimples start popping out like nobody's business and my face look so dead now. Look like a old aunty.haha!
As for now, I will take a break from Mcd. Enough of Mcd maybe until the next semester begins. This is the first time through out my schooling time, till SAM, till uni, I'm so stressed out till I break down into tears. I never felt like that before. Maybe this year is really though. Honestly I regretted taking engineering, but I can't turn back time now, I must finish this no matter how difficult it takes.
Anyway, throughout exams and late night studies, SHIT happened. There was one night where I came back around 2 something in the morning after studying in Mcd, while I was on the way up in the lift to my 6th floor, i fucking bump into a flasher. This fucker got down on the 3rd floor and while walking out of the lift, he flash his fucking cock to me. Being "quite" calm, in my heart I was like what the fuck are you trying to do but at the same time scared, I still managed to spray the fucking pepper spray at him, but he managed to avoid it. Stupid blardy bastard, fucking sex maniac, nothing better to do is it? The next time I see him I will spray the pepper spray on his cock instead, FUCKER! watch out man!
From now on, if I come back late nights, I will either put a night in cher's house or chin huang's hse or either as chin huang to overnight in the apartment. This place, Lagoon Perdana is fucking scary. Even now the lights in the lift aren't working, only one is lighted up and the lift is dim.
Tonight, I did nothing much only when to 1U jalan-jalan. Wanted to watch a movie, but the time are not suitable, then we went to play snooker with Alex instead. After that when to it "lut-lut" and I'm having stomach ache now, I wonder is it because of the "lut-lut"? sigh..
For this holiday, I will be going to singapore with my friends.Yay! A good break finally. Away from stress and problems. Was supposed to plan to go to bali, but because I decided to shop with my spiff, I cancelled the trip to bali and will only go another time. Too bad this time the spiff isn't as good as the previous one, so things that I wanna do are more constraint. LOL~~
Enough said, without exam there's no stress, but sometimes is boring when I come to think about it. Sometimes a little stress is good. At least it lights up my life a little. HAHA! Now I have to plan how to fill my time till the next semester begins.
More to come on the next blog. I'm sleepy now, need to catch up with my sleep! GOOD NIGHT!!!
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Big girls don't cry
Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
La Da Da Da Da Da
I love this song so much. Don't know why, but just love it. Anyway it's dedicated to a friend of mine. =)
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
La Da Da Da Da Da
I love this song so much. Don't know why, but just love it. Anyway it's dedicated to a friend of mine. =)
Monday, June 11, 2007
A day away yet still dreaming
It's only one and the half day away from my first paper, and I'm still have time to blog. I don't know why I can make myself concentrate during the day but my brains can work better during the night. In short, I can only study well at nights. Last night till 3am I was in McD ss15 studying with my friends. I can't afford to this everynight cuz my exams are still a long way go till the 25th June.
If I sleep late every night, one fine day I will fall sick and cannot afford to fall sick if I want to pass all my papers. That's the problem with last minute studying. Every time when I study towards exams are coming, I will tell myself "next time must study earlier then don't have to struggle till like that" but somehow it won't happen.
Semester after semester I've been repeating the same old routine. DAMN~! Is there anyone that can suggest me a better way of forcing myself to study? sigh... I know i know, I play too much also but that's just me lar..as long study and pass can already, don't need to score so high. It's not a good attitude though!
If I sleep late every night, one fine day I will fall sick and cannot afford to fall sick if I want to pass all my papers. That's the problem with last minute studying. Every time when I study towards exams are coming, I will tell myself "next time must study earlier then don't have to struggle till like that" but somehow it won't happen.
Semester after semester I've been repeating the same old routine. DAMN~! Is there anyone that can suggest me a better way of forcing myself to study? sigh... I know i know, I play too much also but that's just me lar..as long study and pass can already, don't need to score so high. It's not a good attitude though!
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Resolution
My resolution for these two months is to SLIM down. And mark my words, I WILL!!
-shit i must no matter what although these 3 days, I've been eating good food...- haha
-shit i must no matter what although these 3 days, I've been eating good food...- haha
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Crazy In Love
I'm so crazy in love these few days. Not with boys but with shopping. Lately, I've been doing shopping a lot as compared o other years, and what's worst, they are all expensive. OMG, I need to cut down before I declare myself bankrupt! Haha...
Here are a lst of things I bought for the past one month:
1. Naf Naf dress
2. La Primavera Heels
3. Lewre Sandals
4. MNG spagetti stripe
5. Blouse from Top shop
6. ELLE handbag
7. Tube top from Top shop
8. Yin & Yang dress
9. 2 Esprit T-shirt
10. Arnold Palmer T-shirt
11. Skirt from Tribeca
12. One long top from some side stalls in Subang Parade
My total bill just buying all those came up to about RM1200. Haha..crazy..When I look at it, I don't believe myself after calculating my receipts!
Lately I've been buying bottles and bottles of nail polishes too. And some make up lar...Maybe I'm trying to be a real girl already..cuz I'm officially turning 21 in hmm let me see... 2 months 14 days time ..lol~~~
Conclusion: I NEED TO CONTROL AND START SAVING. If unless I have sponsors I will continue... =)
Besides the crazyness of shopping, I'm trying to diet also so that I can fit into all my clothes which I can't wear last time..forcing myself to lose weight. I already made deals with certain friends, trust me, the next sem, you'll see me slimmer than before.. haha (I better hope so!) ;)
Here are a lst of things I bought for the past one month:
1. Naf Naf dress
2. La Primavera Heels
3. Lewre Sandals
4. MNG spagetti stripe
5. Blouse from Top shop
6. ELLE handbag
7. Tube top from Top shop
8. Yin & Yang dress
9. 2 Esprit T-shirt
10. Arnold Palmer T-shirt
11. Skirt from Tribeca
12. One long top from some side stalls in Subang Parade
My total bill just buying all those came up to about RM1200. Haha..crazy..When I look at it, I don't believe myself after calculating my receipts!
Lately I've been buying bottles and bottles of nail polishes too. And some make up lar...Maybe I'm trying to be a real girl already..cuz I'm officially turning 21 in hmm let me see... 2 months 14 days time ..lol~~~
Conclusion: I NEED TO CONTROL AND START SAVING. If unless I have sponsors I will continue... =)
Besides the crazyness of shopping, I'm trying to diet also so that I can fit into all my clothes which I can't wear last time..forcing myself to lose weight. I already made deals with certain friends, trust me, the next sem, you'll see me slimmer than before.. haha (I better hope so!) ;)
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Boring
When it comes to studying it's always boring. I wonder why/ Maybe I'm just not interested in it. Honestly, I can't wait to work and earn my own money. Most of my friends fear of working but I'm not. I wonder why again. Am i that weird? I feel that working life suites me better than studying. But now no matter what I have to force myself to study just to get the degree and then I can continue with life.. ha~~ that's my plan..faster study finish, faster work..
Coming to think about working, I don't think I will end up working as what I'm studying. I don't enjoy engineering that much. And if I'm given a chance, I would had major in marketing and finance. But it's too late already. Nevermind, when I work, I still have the slight chances. haha~~
Sometimes when some juniors asked me should they study engineering, I will advise them, if you're not a hardworking person, better not! It's true..in this course you can't get lazy, you barely have time to get lazy, if you're lazy you'll end up strugling like me. 2 weeks before exam getting scared and worried and over-stressing myself.
Anyway, I have to end now. I seriously need to get back to study before I fail another paper..
chao~~
Coming to think about working, I don't think I will end up working as what I'm studying. I don't enjoy engineering that much. And if I'm given a chance, I would had major in marketing and finance. But it's too late already. Nevermind, when I work, I still have the slight chances. haha~~
Sometimes when some juniors asked me should they study engineering, I will advise them, if you're not a hardworking person, better not! It's true..in this course you can't get lazy, you barely have time to get lazy, if you're lazy you'll end up strugling like me. 2 weeks before exam getting scared and worried and over-stressing myself.
Anyway, I have to end now. I seriously need to get back to study before I fail another paper..
chao~~
Monday, June 04, 2007
Ramdom
I'n so boring that i've started blogging again. At least ppl whom I hardly see will know what's going on with me.. haha..
Anyway, I was suppsoe to study since finals are approaching but I can't seem to focus well. What I'm doing now is planning for my hols more than paying attention while studying.. NAUGHTY ME!I know I know, will start paying attention, if not I'll fali again like 2 sems ago..better hope and pray hard not!
Talking about hols, it will be here soon once my exams are over. Since it's for 3 weeks, I think I'll try to find a lot of thing to do, i.e. going to singapore, genting, cameron highlands and maybe crazy enough bali...that depends how much of $$$ i've got..haha...any sponsors?
Well, I better get back to my book world before I dream further..
tata!!~~
Anyway, I was suppsoe to study since finals are approaching but I can't seem to focus well. What I'm doing now is planning for my hols more than paying attention while studying.. NAUGHTY ME!I know I know, will start paying attention, if not I'll fali again like 2 sems ago..better hope and pray hard not!
Talking about hols, it will be here soon once my exams are over. Since it's for 3 weeks, I think I'll try to find a lot of thing to do, i.e. going to singapore, genting, cameron highlands and maybe crazy enough bali...that depends how much of $$$ i've got..haha...any sponsors?
Well, I better get back to my book world before I dream further..
tata!!~~
Sunday, June 03, 2007
You
You know why i can't study? Its because of you who neglects me lately, because of you saying you're sien of me, beause of you who don't put me as your first priority anymore. If you think that you're right and think again. It won't take you long. Sometimes I feel you've changed but you think I'm crazy if i ever tell you that. You don't used to be someone who I once knew and who i wanted to be with. Last time you will volunteer, now i must beg. WHY? Did i did something wrong to you that you hate me so much. If you really hate me so much, then why continue? Why you always lie to me that you love me when i asked you?
Sometimes I wonder whether you're getting more bored with me cuz I don't study or maybe cuz I'm stupid. If you do, meaning you don't love me for who I am. Everytime I see you with your friends I get very jealous, beacuse you seems to be happier with them than with me..You don't know how I feel sitting next to you when you're laughing along with you friend but when you're with me, you just keep quiet till i bring up a conversation.
Sometimes you make me feel so sad till I don't know where I stand in your heart. Everything that I asked for is so hard to be done but when your friends ask for it. it's just a simple "yes". When I wanna watch the movie, it's usually "no" because you have so much thing to do, but when your friends asked, straight away the answer is "yes". WHY? You know I love you so much that I am willing to follow your flow without complaining. But I don't know how long can I stand. Please don't blame me if I ever leave you one day.
Everyday I try my best to be a better person so that you will not find me sien. But I realized the more I try, the worst it gets. Because of you treating me like that. I had to find another girlfriend of mind to be my company. Someone who can share my problems with. You used to be that person, but now I find it hard to tell you stuff, cuz u always act like you're not listening. You are not that guy that I used to love 8 months ago. You were very different then.
WHY did you change? Is it because you feel that I'm stupid, or maybe you feel I'm getting uglier, or maybe you don't want me anymore. Everytime when I wish you were there for me, but you weren't. I always tell myself, maybe you are very busy studying, so don't disturb him but then I realize I'm just lying to myself to be happy. Inside me, I know you're not so into me anymore like you used to. I always thought you weren't that tyoe of guy, but you proof me wrong. I'm here now to give you a chance to proof me wrong. Show me that you still love me not just saying it. I'm not complaining, but I just want you to realize that I'm unhappy and what I feel. If I'm given one wish, I would prefer you to be you last time.
You know I love you very much, but why do you take me for granted? You know I'm willing to do anything for you no matter what your answers are, but don't you feel evil sometimes? You know something that I have not tell you lately? Call me stupid, but no matter how much pain I'm going through, there is only YOU in my heart.
-I LOVE YOU-
Sometimes I wonder whether you're getting more bored with me cuz I don't study or maybe cuz I'm stupid. If you do, meaning you don't love me for who I am. Everytime I see you with your friends I get very jealous, beacuse you seems to be happier with them than with me..You don't know how I feel sitting next to you when you're laughing along with you friend but when you're with me, you just keep quiet till i bring up a conversation.
Sometimes you make me feel so sad till I don't know where I stand in your heart. Everything that I asked for is so hard to be done but when your friends ask for it. it's just a simple "yes". When I wanna watch the movie, it's usually "no" because you have so much thing to do, but when your friends asked, straight away the answer is "yes". WHY? You know I love you so much that I am willing to follow your flow without complaining. But I don't know how long can I stand. Please don't blame me if I ever leave you one day.
Everyday I try my best to be a better person so that you will not find me sien. But I realized the more I try, the worst it gets. Because of you treating me like that. I had to find another girlfriend of mind to be my company. Someone who can share my problems with. You used to be that person, but now I find it hard to tell you stuff, cuz u always act like you're not listening. You are not that guy that I used to love 8 months ago. You were very different then.
WHY did you change? Is it because you feel that I'm stupid, or maybe you feel I'm getting uglier, or maybe you don't want me anymore. Everytime when I wish you were there for me, but you weren't. I always tell myself, maybe you are very busy studying, so don't disturb him but then I realize I'm just lying to myself to be happy. Inside me, I know you're not so into me anymore like you used to. I always thought you weren't that tyoe of guy, but you proof me wrong. I'm here now to give you a chance to proof me wrong. Show me that you still love me not just saying it. I'm not complaining, but I just want you to realize that I'm unhappy and what I feel. If I'm given one wish, I would prefer you to be you last time.
You know I love you very much, but why do you take me for granted? You know I'm willing to do anything for you no matter what your answers are, but don't you feel evil sometimes? You know something that I have not tell you lately? Call me stupid, but no matter how much pain I'm going through, there is only YOU in my heart.
-I LOVE YOU-
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