First day of Lab

Last week was just pure lectures, this week, my labs started. I had my first modelling lab and tute today. So far so good, at least we weren't so lost like how we are when we did power lab last year. Cuz this time my lecturer Dr. Edwin and the tutor, I don't know how to spell his name, is very good. haha. They are so helpful. Now, I'm hoping when I do my thesis next year, I'll get the opportunity to be under him, as he is much better and helpful compared to the other lecturers man!



So far, this modelling lab still look and feel ok. I'm hoping all 4 labs for modelling will also be ok. This time, I promise to myself I will be more hardworking than the semesters that had past. Yes, I must, no matter how tough it takes. Some might think I'm just bullshitting, but this time I'm for real. I WILL make myself study!!

Birthdays

I'm back in Klang not to spend time at home but to attend my dear friends birthday party. One each night, Friday night, Saturday night and Sunday night as well. Yup, since all the 1986s are all 21 this year, it's a big celebration for everyone, maybe not everyone, but most.



Tonight, I attended one which was very grand, it's like attending a wedding dinner. But it was fun though. I was so glad that I met alot of my long time no see friends, and i missed chatting with them and also laughing with them. I remember those were the days, when we meet up with one another just to gossip or maybe joke around or what so ever. But now, most of us have our own paths, all walking on different paths that separates us. Some remains the same, some really change 180 degrees.



I realised we are all now 21, being and official adult, everyone will have their on way. Some already working, some still studying, like me, some just started studying, some flying off to further their studies. People change huh, some getting fatter, some getting prettier, some getting thinner, some getting taller, some getting more handsome but sad to say there are some who are getting uglier. Haha, what to do, this is life, things change whether you like it or not.

Confused

I'm sometimes very confused with what I'm doing. Am I blind or am I not? Am I all out of love or I want more? Why am I doing things that I'm not supposed to do and not doing things that I am supposed to do? What's with me nowadays? What happened to the Yuen Shin that I once knew? Sometimes I feel that I've changed to be a very different person whom people no longer know me that well anymore. Why did I changed? Did I do it on purpose? Did I do it for the sake of doing it? Or did I do it just because I want to please everyone? I know it's wrong, but I still continue doing it. There are a lot of things that I want to talk about to someone who I can trust, but I can't because I don't trust anyone besides myself. I cry sometimes wondering what has become of me? I don't know who am I now. I need someone to tell me and guide me, but who? Enough said, sometimes I hope I was never born out in this world!

New beginning

2nd sem had started and a new study life begins. I must now remind myself, no playing, no smoking, no drinking etc. but can I avoid myself from doing all this? We'll see by the mid of this semester.