As usual, my dear will come visit every morning before we go out unless we have early lectures at 8am then he will pick me up straight and head to uni. After having enough of sleep, at 11 plus we met up with weng wai and soon heng to have lunch. We ate dim sum! *yum yum*. Afterthat, we had a ONE HOUR miserable Maths lecture. As usual, couldn't catch what he said. He is moving real fast like the "MRT" train in Singapore. So fast la "ah pek" cannot catch up with your speed. We students are just as fast as the "KTM" and you are moving as fast as the "MRT" where can? So much difference la! Anyway, the one hour managed to pass by and by 3pm, my usual group including dear played futsal. Me always being the only girl there will sit and wait and watch. Thus with the fucking weather which is so hot, alamak, is damn hot. Though I'm not playing, I'm also sweating like hell.
An hour and the half had passed, and the game is finally over. By the time, my shirt is already almost wet. Sweating, sweating, sweating. I hate sweating. Anyway, who does? Came back home, slept for a while, when for dinner. Felt a little bit fat, so started cleaning the whole apartment as a form of exercise. haha. Now I'm feeling tired and I'm going to sleep maybe after blogging or latest by 12am. I have 8am lecture tomorrow. I hope dear will be able to wake up. Not like Monday again. Called him at 8am and he just got up, thinking that I'm conning him that is 8am, but actually I'm not! Hallo, is really 8am la dear! Better make sure your alarm clock will work properly this time ha!
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Second Year Second Semester
And so, Chin Huang and I had been together for about a week already. He seems to be the guy I dream of, well, let's hope he is. =)
Anyway, my first class starts today at 8am in the morning, thanks to my dear, we were late cause he couldn't get up! But forgiven cause he was working for the last two days of holidays (I accompanied him from 3pm till he finishes work which was around 9pm). He had to accompany me after working and fetch me back home to Klang on Sunday, practically, he didn't had enough of sleep. Well, lucky we were late for the damn lecture. My friends who were there in the lecture hall waiting to listen to the FIRST lecture was turned down, cause practically, MONASH is still finding a lecturer for this subject! WTF? We paid RM15,000++ to wait for them to find us a lecturer? That's real great! MUM, Good Job!
The next lecture was Digital Systems which starts at 11am-1pm. I couldn't catch what the hell he said in lectures. Firstly he didn't want to use the mic, maybe he thinks his voice was powerful and loud enough, but actually, it's so damn difficult to listen to what he is saying. He sounds like his mumbling to himself more than passing the facts on to the students. Quarter way through the lecture, one students shouted and asked him to use the damn microphone and lucky he finally did, but yet, he couldn't catch much of our attention. Gone, one lecture down that doesn's capture our interest!
Next was Mathematics B. Thought it would be okay, but OMG, our lecturer is like some "ah pek" who might be around 60 or a little less. He can't pronounce "r" properly. So, words like "very" becomes "vely", "engineering" becomes "engineeling". Walau, typical Chinaman pronounciation!! But still can be lecturer. Dear said, maybe if we find him personally, we should ask him to speak chinese instead. lol!
Anyway, the first day of class wasn't that interesting. Hope it won't get worst.
Anyway, my first class starts today at 8am in the morning, thanks to my dear, we were late cause he couldn't get up! But forgiven cause he was working for the last two days of holidays (I accompanied him from 3pm till he finishes work which was around 9pm). He had to accompany me after working and fetch me back home to Klang on Sunday, practically, he didn't had enough of sleep. Well, lucky we were late for the damn lecture. My friends who were there in the lecture hall waiting to listen to the FIRST lecture was turned down, cause practically, MONASH is still finding a lecturer for this subject! WTF? We paid RM15,000++ to wait for them to find us a lecturer? That's real great! MUM, Good Job!
The next lecture was Digital Systems which starts at 11am-1pm. I couldn't catch what the hell he said in lectures. Firstly he didn't want to use the mic, maybe he thinks his voice was powerful and loud enough, but actually, it's so damn difficult to listen to what he is saying. He sounds like his mumbling to himself more than passing the facts on to the students. Quarter way through the lecture, one students shouted and asked him to use the damn microphone and lucky he finally did, but yet, he couldn't catch much of our attention. Gone, one lecture down that doesn's capture our interest!
Next was Mathematics B. Thought it would be okay, but OMG, our lecturer is like some "ah pek" who might be around 60 or a little less. He can't pronounce "r" properly. So, words like "very" becomes "vely", "engineering" becomes "engineeling". Walau, typical Chinaman pronounciation!! But still can be lecturer. Dear said, maybe if we find him personally, we should ask him to speak chinese instead. lol!
Anyway, the first day of class wasn't that interesting. Hope it won't get worst.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Girl with a broken smile has RETURN happy again
I'm reminiscing back where I first fell for this guy and after a while i stop having feelings for him and then had feelings for him again when he started showing signs that he likes me too. He used to be a close of friend of mine, whom i share all my secrets with him. Happiness and sadness. Though friends, we looked like couple cuz sometimes we act like one. When people ask, are you couples, we smile and say NO! But after a year, WE are now OFFICIALLY couples. Yes. On the 10th July 2006, last day of world cup where Italy won, Chin Huang and me (Yuen) became couples. I'm not trying to be bossy, but I'm just happy. Surprising?! Nah, everybody already expected but it was just a matter of time. For me, i never thought it will come so soon. But nevermind la, he's already my boyfriend now, and yes when people ask, i can comfortably say YES. I have not been with a boy whom i really like since I broke up with pei fei. After pei fei, my other relationships were like "flings". Come, come, go , go.
But this one, is someone whom i really like. I knew him for a little bit more than a year before we got together as couples. Someone who like me for half a year before he dare to take the chance to be my official boyfriend. I do not know what other words can replace "happy" but i am very happy. A girl who had a broken smile has now found back her smile again. And i hope this time it will last. I'll mark my words for that. All my close friends will know how happy am i and maybe him too la. Especially yk whose listen to my ups and downs story which sometimes makes him go crazy and always say i'm full of shit. Thinking back, hell yes i am! lol!
I'm grateful that now i'm finally together with him. No worries that he will get a gf before me. What happens in the future, that, i'll think later. For the time being, i'll just stay happy and enjoy.
Dear, if you are reading this, you mean a lot to me and you make me happy. I love you very much, chen chin huang. =) (sorry to others, if this sounds "yok ma". haha but when people is in love you know la.)
But this one, is someone whom i really like. I knew him for a little bit more than a year before we got together as couples. Someone who like me for half a year before he dare to take the chance to be my official boyfriend. I do not know what other words can replace "happy" but i am very happy. A girl who had a broken smile has now found back her smile again. And i hope this time it will last. I'll mark my words for that. All my close friends will know how happy am i and maybe him too la. Especially yk whose listen to my ups and downs story which sometimes makes him go crazy and always say i'm full of shit. Thinking back, hell yes i am! lol!
I'm grateful that now i'm finally together with him. No worries that he will get a gf before me. What happens in the future, that, i'll think later. For the time being, i'll just stay happy and enjoy.
Dear, if you are reading this, you mean a lot to me and you make me happy. I love you very much, chen chin huang. =) (sorry to others, if this sounds "yok ma". haha but when people is in love you know la.)
Monday, July 03, 2006
Plain nonsense
When i named my blog "life of an ordinary teenager" it really is. everyday, is plain boring. the daily routine repeats and usually, nothing interesting happen. i'm gonna repeat what i said in my previous blog. life's boring! i wonder why huh? could it be because i don't know how to enjoy life? or maybe my life's coming to an end (fuck! i'm starting to talk rubbish again) anyway, don't worry nothing's wrong with me. maybe because it's so boring that i can't think of what to say!
Everyday, everyone has something to do. I also do. Early in the morning, I fetch my mum to work, then come back, continue sleeping, go out have lunch, meet friends for either shopping or a movie, then eat then come back, have dinner with parents sometimes with friends then watch tv and then sleep. this routine repeats everytime i'm on holiday.
Sometimes it's plain wondering. Well, i used to drive up practically EVERYTIME to find my friends. One day my mum said, why can't your friends come down? i couldn't answer her and just smiled. come to think about it, yeah why cant they come down when i can go up? morover i'm a GIRL. from pj going to sri petaling is almost as far as from pj coming down to klang right? is i can go up to kl, people from kl also can come down to klang right? morover they have their own car and i don't! i usually have to borrow my mum's car when i want to go out. nevermind la, no point complaining. cause no one understands. anyway, as long everyone happy can already! Even more, when people from Malacca is willing to drive down to Klang to pay a visit so i'm wondering why the fuck KL people can complain?
Let's hope for this holiday to over soon! =p
Everyday, everyone has something to do. I also do. Early in the morning, I fetch my mum to work, then come back, continue sleeping, go out have lunch, meet friends for either shopping or a movie, then eat then come back, have dinner with parents sometimes with friends then watch tv and then sleep. this routine repeats everytime i'm on holiday.
Sometimes it's plain wondering. Well, i used to drive up practically EVERYTIME to find my friends. One day my mum said, why can't your friends come down? i couldn't answer her and just smiled. come to think about it, yeah why cant they come down when i can go up? morover i'm a GIRL. from pj going to sri petaling is almost as far as from pj coming down to klang right? is i can go up to kl, people from kl also can come down to klang right? morover they have their own car and i don't! i usually have to borrow my mum's car when i want to go out. nevermind la, no point complaining. cause no one understands. anyway, as long everyone happy can already! Even more, when people from Malacca is willing to drive down to Klang to pay a visit so i'm wondering why the fuck KL people can complain?
Let's hope for this holiday to over soon! =p
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Back for good I hope
Yes, I’m back, blogging again. Feeling very bored this few days that’s why.
Have you ever reached to a stage in your life where you feel everything around you is boring? Well, I did. I suddenly feel everything around me is so boring which means life’s getting boring. When I was 17, I dream to club every night, begging my mum to allow me to club, but when I started clubbing, I find it boring now. When I was in my teens, girls crave to have boyfriends, so do I, but now I crave to be single. When I was younger, I dream to shop everyday, now I find it boring to shop everyday. Watching movie last time was like something great, now it’s like a daily routine. When I just got my license, I’ll do anything just to drive, but now, I want a driver. Before, I wanted to stay out so much, now I rather be back home. More, I wanted much freedom, now I have it, I rather give it back. I’m only 20, but why am I finding certain things a so boring already? I’m not even half way through life and I’m already complaining life’s boring. I sometimes wonder what’s wrong with me. But never mind, I’ll wait and see what’s more to come or me. =p
I just came back from Cameron Highlands. 5 years ago, my parents used to go up to Cameron at least 5 times a year, but now since I’m grown up, only once or twice a year. Well it was okay, the weather was fucking cold in the night and during the day the cool wind was fucking strong. I ate a lot as usual, especially sweet potatoes, fried sweet potatoes my favourite! Hope I didn’t put on much weight. I was sick a month ago for one month, and now I’m sick again, but not the worst yet (which I hope not) I’m having slight sore throat, cold and cough. If I ever get sick for a month again, I think I will shrink till no one will recognise me.
Recently, all my mind can think about is, shopping, shopping, shopping and shopping. Will anyone volunteer to be my sugar daddy? Haha. The next think on my mind is results, results and results. I just praying hard and hoping for the best to happen! God bless me!
Have you ever reached to a stage in your life where you feel everything around you is boring? Well, I did. I suddenly feel everything around me is so boring which means life’s getting boring. When I was 17, I dream to club every night, begging my mum to allow me to club, but when I started clubbing, I find it boring now. When I was in my teens, girls crave to have boyfriends, so do I, but now I crave to be single. When I was younger, I dream to shop everyday, now I find it boring to shop everyday. Watching movie last time was like something great, now it’s like a daily routine. When I just got my license, I’ll do anything just to drive, but now, I want a driver. Before, I wanted to stay out so much, now I rather be back home. More, I wanted much freedom, now I have it, I rather give it back. I’m only 20, but why am I finding certain things a so boring already? I’m not even half way through life and I’m already complaining life’s boring. I sometimes wonder what’s wrong with me. But never mind, I’ll wait and see what’s more to come or me. =p
I just came back from Cameron Highlands. 5 years ago, my parents used to go up to Cameron at least 5 times a year, but now since I’m grown up, only once or twice a year. Well it was okay, the weather was fucking cold in the night and during the day the cool wind was fucking strong. I ate a lot as usual, especially sweet potatoes, fried sweet potatoes my favourite! Hope I didn’t put on much weight. I was sick a month ago for one month, and now I’m sick again, but not the worst yet (which I hope not) I’m having slight sore throat, cold and cough. If I ever get sick for a month again, I think I will shrink till no one will recognise me.
Recently, all my mind can think about is, shopping, shopping, shopping and shopping. Will anyone volunteer to be my sugar daddy? Haha. The next think on my mind is results, results and results. I just praying hard and hoping for the best to happen! God bless me!
Friday, May 26, 2006
I'm blind and invisible
I'm sick for more than a week already, but have not recover yet...i'm having a very bad sorethroat, adding to that, my cough is here now, so my throat is even more hurt...i've been coughing very very badly for the past few days, especially in the night, that tonight, i could already taste blood in my throat...
do i need to actually cough blood out and get admitted to a hospital, then only someone will realise that i'm actually sick? or maybe i should cough till i die, then only someone will realise that i'm suddenly no where to be seen...friends come friends go, and only when i'm in need, i can see who are my real friends...friends who really care for you, friends who are really in great help when you need one and most important of all, friends who accept you for who you are...
maybe, i'm fucking invisible to someone's eyes...i was never appeared in that person's eyes before, i'm blind for all these while, i always thought it was like that, but it never was, it was all the while the opposite of what i was thinking..i was blinded in the beginning..but blessing in disguise, i realised and came to a stop...i woke up from my "dreamland" and i stopped everything...i don't want to care anymore, i don't want to waste my effort on something that i know will never happen...
NOW, i wanna recover from my cough and bad sorethroat soon, so that i can start focussing and achieve my goal, at least i know if i study hard enough, i will be and earn what i want in future, better than putting hope in something that i know i will never get..
if you regret one day, don't come back to me cuz for me, when it's gone, IT'S GONE...life's never a beautiful one, until you find what you really want...
do i need to actually cough blood out and get admitted to a hospital, then only someone will realise that i'm actually sick? or maybe i should cough till i die, then only someone will realise that i'm suddenly no where to be seen...friends come friends go, and only when i'm in need, i can see who are my real friends...friends who really care for you, friends who are really in great help when you need one and most important of all, friends who accept you for who you are...
maybe, i'm fucking invisible to someone's eyes...i was never appeared in that person's eyes before, i'm blind for all these while, i always thought it was like that, but it never was, it was all the while the opposite of what i was thinking..i was blinded in the beginning..but blessing in disguise, i realised and came to a stop...i woke up from my "dreamland" and i stopped everything...i don't want to care anymore, i don't want to waste my effort on something that i know will never happen...
NOW, i wanna recover from my cough and bad sorethroat soon, so that i can start focussing and achieve my goal, at least i know if i study hard enough, i will be and earn what i want in future, better than putting hope in something that i know i will never get..
if you regret one day, don't come back to me cuz for me, when it's gone, IT'S GONE...life's never a beautiful one, until you find what you really want...
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Rubbish post...lol~~
Just felt like blogging but there's nothing in particular that I wanna talk about, so I decided to just tell whatever that's coming out of my mind..
First, I can't wait for my spiff to come out, it will be coming out on the 28th of April and I hope my stupid agent won't pass it to me too late and I also hope they won't tax much! If they do, I will find them and "tiu kao" them!!!! It's my earnings and you dare touch it, I'll kill them!
Anyway once my spiff is out, I have lots of things in mind to buy, I hope it's enough to cover everything...lol...well, first, I'll cut my hair, dye and highlight it again, then I will go get myself a sunglass, then shop around for perfume and then if there are balance, I'll go shop for more clothes....
Rewinding all the way back when I went for Tiesto's concert, I bumped into my uni friend, and he was with a few of his friends, one of them was quite cute...for me his cute lor..only introduced name but never take number...*sigh* sad sad....wasted wasted...nevermind, if fated to meet again then let it be..lol...I'm starting to get horny...-cute guy cute guy cute guy- hahahahahaha
First, I can't wait for my spiff to come out, it will be coming out on the 28th of April and I hope my stupid agent won't pass it to me too late and I also hope they won't tax much! If they do, I will find them and "tiu kao" them!!!! It's my earnings and you dare touch it, I'll kill them!
Anyway once my spiff is out, I have lots of things in mind to buy, I hope it's enough to cover everything...lol...well, first, I'll cut my hair, dye and highlight it again, then I will go get myself a sunglass, then shop around for perfume and then if there are balance, I'll go shop for more clothes....
Rewinding all the way back when I went for Tiesto's concert, I bumped into my uni friend, and he was with a few of his friends, one of them was quite cute...for me his cute lor..only introduced name but never take number...*sigh* sad sad....wasted wasted...nevermind, if fated to meet again then let it be..lol...I'm starting to get horny...-cute guy cute guy cute guy- hahahahahaha
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
WILL computing be my favourite subject?
oh no...last sem and this sem i had to learn this stupid c++ subject....shit lar..first when i was born i had to learn english language, then started to learn chinese language and now COMPUTER LANGUAGE!! what the hell, i will never understand what is it....
we usually speak E.N.G.L.I.S.H how in the world am i gonna learn to speak C.L.A.N.G.U.A.G.E?
someone teach me! lol
we usually speak E.N.G.L.I.S.H how in the world am i gonna learn to speak C.L.A.N.G.U.A.G.E?
someone teach me! lol
Friday, March 03, 2006
Depressed
i'm so not myself thses few days, seriously i need a break..a break far from everyone, a break far from KL.. i need a peaceful place to think what and who am i now..from the beginning of this year till now, i'm so not myself at all..not the Yuen Shin people once knew, not the Yuen Shin people once see, not the Yuen Shin people once used to laugh with..
i'm in great dilemma that i can't say it out in public..i'm so sick of living.. i'm dead serious..i'm wondering now whether to still be seen or not..i'm starting to get depressed..i think i need to talk to someone who can actually help me with my problem before i end up getting crazy..i need someone who can actually wake me up from all this trouble..take me far away..FAR FAR away..
deep down inside me i don't really feel like going to australia to study already, but then because of all the problems and troubles that are going through here, i can't stand it but to leave..i know people will say why should i run away from my problems and instead settle it, but it's not as easy as it seems..i'm trying very hard to solve it, but it never do..so what's the last resort? to run away from it!
do i have a choice? i have to agree with everyone in order to fit in any group, i have to agree with any decision made by people who i respect and love..if i don't will i be having friends now? if i don't do you think people will at least still recognized Yuen Shin as their friend? if i'm always the leader, i don't think i'll actually have any friends already..i am still happy and grateful to have all my friends that I am with now, but then i know there are things which i'm not satisfy with as well, but do i have the choice but to shut up? it's impossible for me to say what have i got to say because in the end i will lose everthing..
i ADMIT i am scared to lose people..if i choose to confront i have to be prepared to lose, but then i am not prepared for it..
p/s: this is only meant to be read. forget about trying to help..is not that i'm trying to be bossy, but then no one can help me but myself, thanks for those who care, and if you care for me, just do me a favour, don't ask me anything..thank you
I WILL FIND MY WAY OUT SOMEDAY....
i'm in great dilemma that i can't say it out in public..i'm so sick of living.. i'm dead serious..i'm wondering now whether to still be seen or not..i'm starting to get depressed..i think i need to talk to someone who can actually help me with my problem before i end up getting crazy..i need someone who can actually wake me up from all this trouble..take me far away..FAR FAR away..
deep down inside me i don't really feel like going to australia to study already, but then because of all the problems and troubles that are going through here, i can't stand it but to leave..i know people will say why should i run away from my problems and instead settle it, but it's not as easy as it seems..i'm trying very hard to solve it, but it never do..so what's the last resort? to run away from it!
do i have a choice? i have to agree with everyone in order to fit in any group, i have to agree with any decision made by people who i respect and love..if i don't will i be having friends now? if i don't do you think people will at least still recognized Yuen Shin as their friend? if i'm always the leader, i don't think i'll actually have any friends already..i am still happy and grateful to have all my friends that I am with now, but then i know there are things which i'm not satisfy with as well, but do i have the choice but to shut up? it's impossible for me to say what have i got to say because in the end i will lose everthing..
i ADMIT i am scared to lose people..if i choose to confront i have to be prepared to lose, but then i am not prepared for it..
p/s: this is only meant to be read. forget about trying to help..is not that i'm trying to be bossy, but then no one can help me but myself, thanks for those who care, and if you care for me, just do me a favour, don't ask me anything..thank you
I WILL FIND MY WAY OUT SOMEDAY....
why "S"
why makes things so difficult when it's so simple actually?
why make me cry when i'm all the while happy?
why make me suffer when i was having fun all the time?
why make my life so miserable when it was sailing smoothly all the while?
why am i losing friends when i used to have plenty once?
why am i failing when i used to pass all the while?
why can't people understand me when i can understand people?
why can't someone just make me happy?
why can't someone stop me from crying?
why can't i have happiness like everyone does?
why can't i have something perfect in my life?
why must i suffer till i always feel like committing suicide?
why must i get hurt when other people don't?
why can't i have a piece of mind?
why must i think so much?
why make me cry when i'm all the while happy?
why make me suffer when i was having fun all the time?
why make my life so miserable when it was sailing smoothly all the while?
why am i losing friends when i used to have plenty once?
why am i failing when i used to pass all the while?
why can't people understand me when i can understand people?
why can't someone just make me happy?
why can't someone stop me from crying?
why can't i have happiness like everyone does?
why can't i have something perfect in my life?
why must i suffer till i always feel like committing suicide?
why must i get hurt when other people don't?
why can't i have a piece of mind?
why must i think so much?
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
year after year after year
years had passed, yet i still go through the same shit every year..people say easy come easy go, but somehow or rather i easy come HARD go..haha
i hope that i had never bumped, i hope i never had like, i hope i had never had loved and then i will never start..
i hope i never had see, i hope i never had listen, i hope i never had knew and then i won't get hurt..
i'm now just waiting for time to pass by and see what comes next for me
i hope that i had never bumped, i hope i never had like, i hope i had never had loved and then i will never start..
i hope i never had see, i hope i never had listen, i hope i never had knew and then i won't get hurt..
i'm now just waiting for time to pass by and see what comes next for me
Sunday, December 25, 2005
the blue moon rised once again
well, you should know why i chose this title right??
lol..anyway, yes, I have not been blogging for a long time.I've been kinda busy as i am now working part time in Hewlett-Packard as a telemarketer..can you believe it...me working as a telemarketer?? anyway, working life really sucks!!! I wake up at 6 every morning and reach home at 9 every night...ohh gosh, i'm living in the dark!! i barely see sunlight...
i have nothing much to blog about as i am very very tired...i've not been getting enough sleep every night..moreover, it's CHRISTMAS...I've been out most of the times and then, NEW YEAR is round the corner as well...OMG...
although i rush to do things, but i still enjoy it!! haha..i don't know why..!!
p/s: MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!
lol..anyway, yes, I have not been blogging for a long time.I've been kinda busy as i am now working part time in Hewlett-Packard as a telemarketer..can you believe it...me working as a telemarketer?? anyway, working life really sucks!!! I wake up at 6 every morning and reach home at 9 every night...ohh gosh, i'm living in the dark!! i barely see sunlight...
i have nothing much to blog about as i am very very tired...i've not been getting enough sleep every night..moreover, it's CHRISTMAS...I've been out most of the times and then, NEW YEAR is round the corner as well...OMG...
although i rush to do things, but i still enjoy it!! haha..i don't know why..!!
p/s: MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!
Saturday, November 12, 2005
i was never meant to be
i guess i was borned to be an unhappy child since the very second i started breathing...i don't know whether i'm being too sensitive or it's true that everything that i'm sensing it's either gonna happen or it's already happening..
i'm starting to think whether i'm gonna suffer from now till the day i'm gone or it's just a short period of time my sufferings will last..i really want an answer so that i can live my life happily..
everyday i'm hoping for wonders to happen to me but it won't..WHY?? maybe i did a lot of sins in my past life or maybe i was never meant to be happy..
i don't hope for more but i only hope for things to be fine around me...GOD BLESS ME
p/s: to my dear friends who read this, please do me a favour..after reading don't ask me why am i being like this..thank you
i'm starting to think whether i'm gonna suffer from now till the day i'm gone or it's just a short period of time my sufferings will last..i really want an answer so that i can live my life happily..
everyday i'm hoping for wonders to happen to me but it won't..WHY?? maybe i did a lot of sins in my past life or maybe i was never meant to be happy..
i don't hope for more but i only hope for things to be fine around me...GOD BLESS ME
p/s: to my dear friends who read this, please do me a favour..after reading don't ask me why am i being like this..thank you
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
FUCK this life
people say life is beautiful...I say life is ugly-ful...i have this someone (a small little girl) whom i looked after since she was borned until she went back to Singapore when she was about 4 to live with her parents...she's my babysitter's grandaughter..i love her so much that people actually thought that i was her mother cause she looks like me...but she's not..well, since i'm an only child, she's like a younger sister to me...when she went back to live with her parents i actually cried cause i know i won't be able to see her, hug her and kiss her that often anymore...
well, as years went by...she grew bigger and of course prettier...taller and smarter...you see, when she was young, she used to scratch when the mosquito bite till it bleeds and till there's a scar...so there are alot of them on her legs...people usually call it...5 cents, 10 cents mark on the legs or hands la...few months ago, when she came back to Malaysia, i visited her...and my babysitter told me to look at the back of her legs..her scar worsen..she scratches even more and now it's like as if her parents burn her with the cigarette or somethings...recently, she came back again, and guess what now the scar is all over her legs and now is slwoly affecting her hands as well, this time, the parents came down to take her to see the specialist...when i look at her legs, i really hope that it was me having those scars and not her...seeing those scars really hurts me..even more, some are just freshly scratch...means i can still see those blood..yes, we told her not to scratch, but then how can a kid control herself from scratching when is so fucking itchy?? even we adults sometimes can't stand it...!! damn!!
i followed my babysitter and her family to port dickson last sunday...and she followed as well, of course..throughout the journey there and back, i kept an eye on her all the way...i took care of her..i gave her all the attention that i can ever give...
what i said above, is already pain enough...(maybe not to everyone cause some will just say, she's just somebody elses daughter but then, all i can say is, i love her more than anything else in the world..really!)..on the way to port dickson, i've heard the even most painful thing i've heard...i quietly sat in the car together with my babysitter and her daughter and son-in-law when i heard that *the little girl that i love so much*'s father has another girl outside...my babysitter went and ask help form those person who can read ones life(some 'sifu')..HE said that, if you want the whole family to be ok, the wife has to quiet about this issue...means although she knows about him having another girl outside, she must act don't know..sooner or later he will come back to her...and that if ever the family breaks, he'll take the older daughter away together with him which is the little girl that i'm talking about...you see, there was once her father when overseas for 2 weeks, and so her mum and her grandparents (mum's side) did not really took good care of her that when her dad came back from overseas, the daughter's scars one her legs got worst..and her dad did say to them that if this happens one more time, he's gonna bring her away along with him...
*sigh sigh* why must all these happen to her?? she's still so young...only 6 years old..she doens't get enough attention when she's in Singapore and in Malaysia, honestly she only gets the most attention from me, her aunty and her grandfather and sometimes her grandmother...(dad's side)..
sometimes i wonder, maybe i'm born to bring bad luck to those i love..anyone that i love so much tends to leave, tends to suffer and i don't know whatelse is gonna happen....i really wish not to see all these things happen..not to see HER suffer and HER family being like that, i really pray nothing bad is gonna happen, wish not to see the one i once love just leave me and made me suffer like shit, not to see the one i love now make me cry...if only someone can teach me what to do...
everyone who sees me thinks that i'm a happy girl with lotsa sparks, flowers, shines and love in my life, i might look strong and steady but actually i'm not..yes there are days that i'm truly happy but most are just so called happy days...deep inside i'm actually very weak..i always cry inside, but smiles outside...i just one someone who really cares for me and is honest to me and sometimes show your love to me cause i cannot read your mind..please, don't always give me mutual messages..i don't know why, but i don't feel it from anyone..maybe i'm a girl who's not easily satisfied and trying to deny the truth or maybe everything around me are really just lies...you may think that i'm nuts...why am i feeling sad and worried for? but nobody will understand me cause even i don't understand myself..even more, you won't feel what have i gone through although i only live through this journey called life for 19 years...so sorry to my friends who really care for me and so sorry to those who i love and whom loves me i know i'm being unfair but----> this message is for you...if one day, i'm gone, and don't have the chance to say thank you for being a great support throughout my journey of life i say it now, and if i'm gone, don't be sad..don't cry cause i don't want to see you cry..smile for me...i'm not crazy while saying this...i seriously can't stand the pain i'm going through at times , not being a good daughter, not being a great friend, not being a good girlfriend, suffering from heartache, suffering from migraine (because of this i have to eat panadols and aspirin like hell), suffering from worries, which will make me so wanna leave the world and i tell you, i have tried before...sometimes, i really hope that i'll get some kinda cancer and peacefully leave this world
but no matter what, i will always love all of you...
well, as years went by...she grew bigger and of course prettier...taller and smarter...you see, when she was young, she used to scratch when the mosquito bite till it bleeds and till there's a scar...so there are alot of them on her legs...people usually call it...5 cents, 10 cents mark on the legs or hands la...few months ago, when she came back to Malaysia, i visited her...and my babysitter told me to look at the back of her legs..her scar worsen..she scratches even more and now it's like as if her parents burn her with the cigarette or somethings...recently, she came back again, and guess what now the scar is all over her legs and now is slwoly affecting her hands as well, this time, the parents came down to take her to see the specialist...when i look at her legs, i really hope that it was me having those scars and not her...seeing those scars really hurts me..even more, some are just freshly scratch...means i can still see those blood..yes, we told her not to scratch, but then how can a kid control herself from scratching when is so fucking itchy?? even we adults sometimes can't stand it...!! damn!!
i followed my babysitter and her family to port dickson last sunday...and she followed as well, of course..throughout the journey there and back, i kept an eye on her all the way...i took care of her..i gave her all the attention that i can ever give...
what i said above, is already pain enough...(maybe not to everyone cause some will just say, she's just somebody elses daughter but then, all i can say is, i love her more than anything else in the world..really!)..on the way to port dickson, i've heard the even most painful thing i've heard...i quietly sat in the car together with my babysitter and her daughter and son-in-law when i heard that *the little girl that i love so much*'s father has another girl outside...my babysitter went and ask help form those person who can read ones life(some 'sifu')..HE said that, if you want the whole family to be ok, the wife has to quiet about this issue...means although she knows about him having another girl outside, she must act don't know..sooner or later he will come back to her...and that if ever the family breaks, he'll take the older daughter away together with him which is the little girl that i'm talking about...you see, there was once her father when overseas for 2 weeks, and so her mum and her grandparents (mum's side) did not really took good care of her that when her dad came back from overseas, the daughter's scars one her legs got worst..and her dad did say to them that if this happens one more time, he's gonna bring her away along with him...
*sigh sigh* why must all these happen to her?? she's still so young...only 6 years old..she doens't get enough attention when she's in Singapore and in Malaysia, honestly she only gets the most attention from me, her aunty and her grandfather and sometimes her grandmother...(dad's side)..
sometimes i wonder, maybe i'm born to bring bad luck to those i love..anyone that i love so much tends to leave, tends to suffer and i don't know whatelse is gonna happen....i really wish not to see all these things happen..not to see HER suffer and HER family being like that, i really pray nothing bad is gonna happen, wish not to see the one i once love just leave me and made me suffer like shit, not to see the one i love now make me cry...if only someone can teach me what to do...
everyone who sees me thinks that i'm a happy girl with lotsa sparks, flowers, shines and love in my life, i might look strong and steady but actually i'm not..yes there are days that i'm truly happy but most are just so called happy days...deep inside i'm actually very weak..i always cry inside, but smiles outside...i just one someone who really cares for me and is honest to me and sometimes show your love to me cause i cannot read your mind..please, don't always give me mutual messages..i don't know why, but i don't feel it from anyone..maybe i'm a girl who's not easily satisfied and trying to deny the truth or maybe everything around me are really just lies...you may think that i'm nuts...why am i feeling sad and worried for? but nobody will understand me cause even i don't understand myself..even more, you won't feel what have i gone through although i only live through this journey called life for 19 years...so sorry to my friends who really care for me and so sorry to those who i love and whom loves me i know i'm being unfair but----> this message is for you...if one day, i'm gone, and don't have the chance to say thank you for being a great support throughout my journey of life i say it now, and if i'm gone, don't be sad..don't cry cause i don't want to see you cry..smile for me...i'm not crazy while saying this...i seriously can't stand the pain i'm going through at times , not being a good daughter, not being a great friend, not being a good girlfriend, suffering from heartache, suffering from migraine (because of this i have to eat panadols and aspirin like hell), suffering from worries, which will make me so wanna leave the world and i tell you, i have tried before...sometimes, i really hope that i'll get some kinda cancer and peacefully leave this world
but no matter what, i will always love all of you...
Friday, October 14, 2005
life
yes.. yes.. i've not been blogging for errmm...??? (i can't even remember when was the last time i blogged) this shows how busy i am...haha..
last few weeks had not been a 'relaxing week'...i have test one week after another..thus, i fell sick again..had high fever, cold and cough..AND i'm still coughing now..OMG...my throat still itches although i had already finished two bottles of cough syrup..i spent RM65 for my medicines...i only had four types of medicine but it cost me so much.that damn antibiotic cost RM50 for 6 bloody pills...i took 3 days to finish them but i'm still now recovered...
i just don't understand why my strusture's lecturer had to postphone the pass up date for the project three(to design a cale bridge) to the last week of uni which is one fucking week before our finals...see..!! now, we cannot only concentrate on our subjects but also this stupid project..this damn 2nd semester is really making us go crazy and exhausted..now we have to study AND do the project at the same time..but thank gawd, this time only 2 persons are required to present...haha..lucky me, i'm not the chosen one..(what to do, not as "keng" as the rest)..kidding..honestly i'm so so happy that i wasn't the one..if i was the one who present, i'll be so tense up and i don't think i will be able to concentrate on my studies too...
speaking of STUDIES...this time i have to do well..i don't want the same thing to happen to me last semester...*i've learnt my lesson*..and lucky of me to have friends which encourages me to study...so THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU (you guys know who you are right...?? i don't need to say who..)
i've been busy doing this and that till i don't ve much time to spend with kenneth..but nevermind la...(be patient for a while more..hopefully after my finals during my 3 months plus holidays i will spend more time with you la..IF i don't have many plans...hahahaha) *how evil am i!!*
seriously, i'm kinda stress out with a lot of things lately too..those who are close to me knows what is it about...but thanks to my dear friends who was there for me, i don't think too much anymore and now i'm feeling better..
i'm gonna have a hectic weekend this week, i have an extra electrical class tomorrow morning for 2 hours and after that my friends and i will be staying back to study till the sky turns dark...and then on sunday, i will be coming to uni again to continue studying..gosh i wonder how am i gonna survive..maybe i need to search for some pills that can keep me going strong la...lol...
oh ya~! did i mentioned that i FINALLY have a bed in my room in the apartment already?? yes, for those who don't know, i used to sleep on a mattress on the floow when i first shifted in...after hhmmm...let me see, 4 months if i'm not mistaken, my parents finally bought me a single bed from IKEA...i even bought tables and so called "cabinets" (my friends who saw my room will know what i meant my "cabinets")..so now, my room looks more like a ROOM...i don't need to breathe in dust and hair anymore...thus, during the one week break, i cleaned my whole room..wipe the very dusty windows, use the vacuum cleaner to suck in all the dust on he floor and ceiling and wipe the ever black dusty fan...now, my room i so much more clean...i hope there will be no more ants too..haha...yes..is not that my room is very dirty or anything, but then no matter how much i clean before i did this spring cleaning, there will still be ants here and there...but not any more..!!
i guess i'll stop here...have to help the rest to do the stupid project...more to come (but don't know when..lol) hopefully soon...tata!!
last few weeks had not been a 'relaxing week'...i have test one week after another..thus, i fell sick again..had high fever, cold and cough..AND i'm still coughing now..OMG...my throat still itches although i had already finished two bottles of cough syrup..i spent RM65 for my medicines...i only had four types of medicine but it cost me so much.that damn antibiotic cost RM50 for 6 bloody pills...i took 3 days to finish them but i'm still now recovered...
i just don't understand why my strusture's lecturer had to postphone the pass up date for the project three(to design a cale bridge) to the last week of uni which is one fucking week before our finals...see..!! now, we cannot only concentrate on our subjects but also this stupid project..this damn 2nd semester is really making us go crazy and exhausted..now we have to study AND do the project at the same time..but thank gawd, this time only 2 persons are required to present...haha..lucky me, i'm not the chosen one..(what to do, not as "keng" as the rest)..kidding..honestly i'm so so happy that i wasn't the one..if i was the one who present, i'll be so tense up and i don't think i will be able to concentrate on my studies too...
speaking of STUDIES...this time i have to do well..i don't want the same thing to happen to me last semester...*i've learnt my lesson*..and lucky of me to have friends which encourages me to study...so THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU (you guys know who you are right...?? i don't need to say who..)
i've been busy doing this and that till i don't ve much time to spend with kenneth..but nevermind la...(be patient for a while more..hopefully after my finals during my 3 months plus holidays i will spend more time with you la..IF i don't have many plans...hahahaha) *how evil am i!!*
seriously, i'm kinda stress out with a lot of things lately too..those who are close to me knows what is it about...but thanks to my dear friends who was there for me, i don't think too much anymore and now i'm feeling better..
i'm gonna have a hectic weekend this week, i have an extra electrical class tomorrow morning for 2 hours and after that my friends and i will be staying back to study till the sky turns dark...and then on sunday, i will be coming to uni again to continue studying..gosh i wonder how am i gonna survive..maybe i need to search for some pills that can keep me going strong la...lol...
oh ya~! did i mentioned that i FINALLY have a bed in my room in the apartment already?? yes, for those who don't know, i used to sleep on a mattress on the floow when i first shifted in...after hhmmm...let me see, 4 months if i'm not mistaken, my parents finally bought me a single bed from IKEA...i even bought tables and so called "cabinets" (my friends who saw my room will know what i meant my "cabinets")..so now, my room looks more like a ROOM...i don't need to breathe in dust and hair anymore...thus, during the one week break, i cleaned my whole room..wipe the very dusty windows, use the vacuum cleaner to suck in all the dust on he floor and ceiling and wipe the ever black dusty fan...now, my room i so much more clean...i hope there will be no more ants too..haha...yes..is not that my room is very dirty or anything, but then no matter how much i clean before i did this spring cleaning, there will still be ants here and there...but not any more..!!
i guess i'll stop here...have to help the rest to do the stupid project...more to come (but don't know when..lol) hopefully soon...tata!!
Monday, October 03, 2005
bad luckS
it was suppose to be a one week break for me and i'm surrounded with bad lucks..don't ask me what they are..but it really sucks..
-bad lucks are better not said-
-bad lucks are better not said-
Saturday, September 24, 2005
i'm back after 2 weeks
well, i have not been blogging for weeks as i was superb busy for the past 2 weeks...too many assignments, projects, tests and reports to be done...i didn't even went back to klang last week but finally my mid-sem break is here...but then, there's still another assignment to be finished before i can really enjoy...
to think about it, i don't think this one week break is really a "break" for me and my other friends as well...WHY?? after this break, we will be sitting for our MatLab test on Tuesday which worth 15% of our internal marks and since i don't know what the shit is going on in this subject, i have to study very hard during the holidays...thus, after this test, i will be sitting for my structures test, so have to study again right??? therefore, one week break = no break...
after all this shit, the last week of october is my FINALS....i repeat, my FINALS...oh my gawd...this 2nd semester is really though and tiring...from the beginning of this semester till the end of the semester i am always busy...and the most fuck-up thing is the damn finals timetable...
on the 24th, i have two bloody difficult paper, electrical and computing (MatLab)...then on the 26th, i have my materials...AND THEN.....my last paper is on the 9th November...what the fuck?? and it's structures..honestly speaking, out of all the 4 subjects, structures is the easier one, but then why must the stupid gab from the 3rd paper to the last paper be so far?? by the time materials is over, is already a half "merdeka" for us...but i don't give a fuck, i will be going to port dickson with my baby-sitter and her family on the 30th...i will continue studying when i return home la...*sigh*
next, i had my "the great newspaper bridge" competition this week..i'm glad to say that our bridge was kinda one of the best, it could stand up to 204kgs...after all the hard work, staying in uni until 10 in the night to finish up the bridge and got burned by the stupid glue gun several times..at least it paid off..
the most bloody thing that irritates me this whole week and also the last week is my health...i'm not recovered until today, still suffering from sorethroat, cold and cough..having not enough of sleep, having so many things to do at one time really make me weak...because i'm so busy, i forgot all about my health..didn't drink enough of water, eating whatever food that i can get, not eating my vitamins and cod liver oil, not drinking my water for my migraine, not drinking some herb drink for my throat, leads to my weak health..i've been eating too many panadol for the past 2 weeks...now, i take aspirin when my migraine attacks instead, since my mum said taking too much panadol is not good...
i have to stop here now...i have another assignment to be done...so adios!!
to think about it, i don't think this one week break is really a "break" for me and my other friends as well...WHY?? after this break, we will be sitting for our MatLab test on Tuesday which worth 15% of our internal marks and since i don't know what the shit is going on in this subject, i have to study very hard during the holidays...thus, after this test, i will be sitting for my structures test, so have to study again right??? therefore, one week break = no break...
after all this shit, the last week of october is my FINALS....i repeat, my FINALS...oh my gawd...this 2nd semester is really though and tiring...from the beginning of this semester till the end of the semester i am always busy...and the most fuck-up thing is the damn finals timetable...
on the 24th, i have two bloody difficult paper, electrical and computing (MatLab)...then on the 26th, i have my materials...AND THEN.....my last paper is on the 9th November...what the fuck?? and it's structures..honestly speaking, out of all the 4 subjects, structures is the easier one, but then why must the stupid gab from the 3rd paper to the last paper be so far?? by the time materials is over, is already a half "merdeka" for us...but i don't give a fuck, i will be going to port dickson with my baby-sitter and her family on the 30th...i will continue studying when i return home la...*sigh*
next, i had my "the great newspaper bridge" competition this week..i'm glad to say that our bridge was kinda one of the best, it could stand up to 204kgs...after all the hard work, staying in uni until 10 in the night to finish up the bridge and got burned by the stupid glue gun several times..at least it paid off..
the most bloody thing that irritates me this whole week and also the last week is my health...i'm not recovered until today, still suffering from sorethroat, cold and cough..having not enough of sleep, having so many things to do at one time really make me weak...because i'm so busy, i forgot all about my health..didn't drink enough of water, eating whatever food that i can get, not eating my vitamins and cod liver oil, not drinking my water for my migraine, not drinking some herb drink for my throat, leads to my weak health..i've been eating too many panadol for the past 2 weeks...now, i take aspirin when my migraine attacks instead, since my mum said taking too much panadol is not good...
i have to stop here now...i have another assignment to be done...so adios!!
Saturday, September 10, 2005
tired yet happy
because of one presentation and assignment, i had to stay back in uni till 7 plus for 3 days...damn i'm tired!! but it doesn't matter, in the end it went on well...usually, i hate to present as i get nervous easily...but i fucking surprised when my tutor commented on my presentation...she said nothing much to comment about..and i'm good...when she said that, i was like...is she for real??! lol..
well, i'm felt very very happy also because, my last structure's test, got 100%...seriously i was damn surprised too!! oh my GOD...i'm so so happy, and moreover, my materials test and lab report was good as well, so many happy things in one week...gosh..i feel so nice!!
and more, kenneth came and find me for 4 days out of 5...good enough..
seriously, how happy can i be?? having good results, good presentation and assignment's done!!
this coming week will be a little bit more relax than last week..at least i have sometime to rest..
p/s: to ww, ben, huang, hoong and halim..."lui lui" is getting fatter!!! OMG
well, i'm felt very very happy also because, my last structure's test, got 100%...seriously i was damn surprised too!! oh my GOD...i'm so so happy, and moreover, my materials test and lab report was good as well, so many happy things in one week...gosh..i feel so nice!!
and more, kenneth came and find me for 4 days out of 5...good enough..
seriously, how happy can i be?? having good results, good presentation and assignment's done!!
this coming week will be a little bit more relax than last week..at least i have sometime to rest..
p/s: to ww, ben, huang, hoong and halim..."lui lui" is getting fatter!!! OMG
Saturday, September 03, 2005
one after another
remember in my last post i told you i had food poisoning....?? well, i got better of course..but during MERDEKA, i had cough and flu...god damn it!! one after another...it's damn suffering la...
i cough so bad till i got migraine...quickly swallowed one panadol and went straight to bed..half way through sleeping, i couldn't breathe properly...all because of the fucking flu...*sigh* SICK of getting sick..!!
i had one whole week of "healthy" food since i just recovered from my food poisoning, i am not allowed to eat egg and dairy food for a week...
and now, the "one" week is already over..lol!!! i can eat anything..i'm so happy...like today, i ate kaya and butter toast, one mushroom bread and a piece cake..*yum yum* ...seriously, i can't wait to eat more..but my stomach can only accept certain amount of food, so i have to control...
i have to get well soon..cause i got another week of test, reports and presentation coming up!!
p/s: i can't wait for holidays to come...i am seriously very very tired already...i'm sure all my friends are also tired too...
i cough so bad till i got migraine...quickly swallowed one panadol and went straight to bed..half way through sleeping, i couldn't breathe properly...all because of the fucking flu...*sigh* SICK of getting sick..!!
i had one whole week of "healthy" food since i just recovered from my food poisoning, i am not allowed to eat egg and dairy food for a week...
and now, the "one" week is already over..lol!!! i can eat anything..i'm so happy...like today, i ate kaya and butter toast, one mushroom bread and a piece cake..*yum yum* ...seriously, i can't wait to eat more..but my stomach can only accept certain amount of food, so i have to control...
i have to get well soon..cause i got another week of test, reports and presentation coming up!!
p/s: i can't wait for holidays to come...i am seriously very very tired already...i'm sure all my friends are also tired too...
Saturday, August 27, 2005
food poisoning
from one week of joy and happiness to another week of disaster...everything went well this week till thursday morning, i had sorethroat and i couldn't eat so i thought maybe it's because i'm having my sorethroat so i lose my appetite..towards noon, i felt worst and i could feel my body's heat increasing and so i had fever...
i was suppose to meet up with kenneth that day cause he was supposed to bring me to midvalley to get my rabbit's cage...although i was sick, i still went..like i said before i thought it was just normal sorethroat and fever...in the end, while eating my dinner, i already felt like vomitting, i barely ate quarter the plate..so right after eating and buying the cage, he brought me home straight...he accompanied me up to the apartment, and spent some time in the apartment for a while..before he left, he asked me whether i need to see the doctor or not? i said it's ok...it's just normal sorethroat and fever and after sleeping i will be fine...but then it wasn't..i fell asleep around 10 something, and started struggling around 12 in the morningi was tossing and turning.. and i messaged weng wai around 1 something, asking him to bring me to the doctor early in the morning, as i'm suffering to the maximum already!! then before i received his reply, i already vomitted, and so after vomitting i felt much better, so i messaged him and said it's ok..i think i can last till after materials lab the next morning then only he'll bring me to the clinic...
but then things got worst after that..around 4 in the morning, i messaged kenneth instead and ask him to bring me to the doctod early in the morning cause i'd been vomitting the whole night..he said ok..so i waited for him till 9 something in the morning then he brought me there..since i've not been to any clinics in sunway, so i just simply drop by one..as long is a qualified doctor, will do...well i don't know whether is she one, but you can judge her yourself, here's the conversation between me and the doctor:
doc: so, what's your problem?
me: erm..i've been vomitting since last night..
doc: how many times did you vomit?
me: more than 10 times
doc: wah, so serious ar?
me: yeah...
doc: ok, so i'll give you some medication to stopped the vomitting and that should be it
me: ok
after that, kenneth sent me back to the apartment and i ate those medicine that she gave me...but guess what, it did not work at all..after eating those medicine, i still vomitted..and so, i called my mum and ask her to bring me back to klang to see the doctor that i used to see whenever i'm sick..so i waited in the apartment for her to come..and immediately i when back to klang to see my doctor...this is what i call a REAL doctor...here's the conversation between me and Dr.Ee:
doc: yes, miss yeo..what's wrong with you this time?
me: i've been vomitting since last night..
doc: hhmm..let me see..(pressing my stomach) any pain?
me: yes..
doc: well, you're suffering from food poisoning..
me: ohhh..
doc: here's what i'm gonna do, i'll give you a jab and some vomitting pills and diarrhoea pills to eat, you only take them 2 to 3 hours after this jab, that is if you still vomit and have diarrhoea..this will go one for like another 2 days or so..so have more rest
me: ok..thank you doctor
see the difference?? anyway, i'm feeling better now...i hope my monday i will be much better..i have one whole busy week coming up...so, god bless me!!
p/s: thanks to all my friends for being so concern over me..i'm very grateful to have friends like you all..and thanks to those who had to do my part of work too..THANK YOU VERY MUCH and sorry for troubling...never expect this to happen!!
i was suppose to meet up with kenneth that day cause he was supposed to bring me to midvalley to get my rabbit's cage...although i was sick, i still went..like i said before i thought it was just normal sorethroat and fever...in the end, while eating my dinner, i already felt like vomitting, i barely ate quarter the plate..so right after eating and buying the cage, he brought me home straight...he accompanied me up to the apartment, and spent some time in the apartment for a while..before he left, he asked me whether i need to see the doctor or not? i said it's ok...it's just normal sorethroat and fever and after sleeping i will be fine...but then it wasn't..i fell asleep around 10 something, and started struggling around 12 in the morningi was tossing and turning.. and i messaged weng wai around 1 something, asking him to bring me to the doctor early in the morning, as i'm suffering to the maximum already!! then before i received his reply, i already vomitted, and so after vomitting i felt much better, so i messaged him and said it's ok..i think i can last till after materials lab the next morning then only he'll bring me to the clinic...
but then things got worst after that..around 4 in the morning, i messaged kenneth instead and ask him to bring me to the doctod early in the morning cause i'd been vomitting the whole night..he said ok..so i waited for him till 9 something in the morning then he brought me there..since i've not been to any clinics in sunway, so i just simply drop by one..as long is a qualified doctor, will do...well i don't know whether is she one, but you can judge her yourself, here's the conversation between me and the doctor:
doc: so, what's your problem?
me: erm..i've been vomitting since last night..
doc: how many times did you vomit?
me: more than 10 times
doc: wah, so serious ar?
me: yeah...
doc: ok, so i'll give you some medication to stopped the vomitting and that should be it
me: ok
after that, kenneth sent me back to the apartment and i ate those medicine that she gave me...but guess what, it did not work at all..after eating those medicine, i still vomitted..and so, i called my mum and ask her to bring me back to klang to see the doctor that i used to see whenever i'm sick..so i waited in the apartment for her to come..and immediately i when back to klang to see my doctor...this is what i call a REAL doctor...here's the conversation between me and Dr.Ee:
doc: yes, miss yeo..what's wrong with you this time?
me: i've been vomitting since last night..
doc: hhmm..let me see..(pressing my stomach) any pain?
me: yes..
doc: well, you're suffering from food poisoning..
me: ohhh..
doc: here's what i'm gonna do, i'll give you a jab and some vomitting pills and diarrhoea pills to eat, you only take them 2 to 3 hours after this jab, that is if you still vomit and have diarrhoea..this will go one for like another 2 days or so..so have more rest
me: ok..thank you doctor
see the difference?? anyway, i'm feeling better now...i hope my monday i will be much better..i have one whole busy week coming up...so, god bless me!!
p/s: thanks to all my friends for being so concern over me..i'm very grateful to have friends like you all..and thanks to those who had to do my part of work too..THANK YOU VERY MUCH and sorry for troubling...never expect this to happen!!
Sunday, August 21, 2005
a really HAPPY birthday
i'm supposed to post this yesterday night before the 20th of August ends..but instead i enjoyed till 2 in the morning...i went straight to bed when i reached home and that is why i'm only posting it now...
anyway, let's begin...first of all, i would like to say THANK YOU very much to my dear friends who made my birthday this year a sweet, happy and memorable one...
great thanx to those who:
wished me face to face: kenneth, simon, miko, loh, mellisa, kelvin mak, kathy, ah kai,halim, sher ri, mun khea, shi yan, see ting, yeong kwan and ju keong
wished me through a telephone call: chin huang, mum, dad, aunty helen, sa-ee and bee yin
wished me through smsed: usha, yoong kang, evelyn, benjamin, su-lyn, juliana quay, michelle mok, cheng cheng, ee von, weng wai, yune-ine, christine, esther yap, sue-li, sue li, see kelvin, aik hoong, ya cheng, joleen, natalie, cheryl, hui wan, gim loong, mun yee, wei wei, gim soon, rhys dury, wei leng, li wei, li yee and allison
wished me through friendster: william lee, yee cherng, denise, yew seng, pei fei, fitri, jun xue, juvan, olivia carlos, hui chen, kavita, heng wee and jun seong
wished me by passing the message to a second party: li cher and cheng yong
i hope i did not missed out anyone's name...i'm sorry if i did...
okay..this is how i celebrated my birthday this year...
it started from thursday itself, my friend, kenneth brought me to malacca for one night...
anyway, let's begin...first of all, i would like to say THANK YOU very much to my dear friends who made my birthday this year a sweet, happy and memorable one...
great thanx to those who:
wished me face to face: kenneth, simon, miko, loh, mellisa, kelvin mak, kathy, ah kai,halim, sher ri, mun khea, shi yan, see ting, yeong kwan and ju keong
wished me through a telephone call: chin huang, mum, dad, aunty helen, sa-ee and bee yin
wished me through smsed: usha, yoong kang, evelyn, benjamin, su-lyn, juliana quay, michelle mok, cheng cheng, ee von, weng wai, yune-ine, christine, esther yap, sue-li, sue li, see kelvin, aik hoong, ya cheng, joleen, natalie, cheryl, hui wan, gim loong, mun yee, wei wei, gim soon, rhys dury, wei leng, li wei, li yee and allison
wished me through friendster: william lee, yee cherng, denise, yew seng, pei fei, fitri, jun xue, juvan, olivia carlos, hui chen, kavita, heng wee and jun seong
wished me by passing the message to a second party: li cher and cheng yong
i hope i did not missed out anyone's name...i'm sorry if i did...
okay..this is how i celebrated my birthday this year...
it started from thursday itself, my friend, kenneth brought me to malacca for one night...
i had fun there of course and i also when clubbing in malacca..can you believe it..all the way up to malacca to club?? well anyway, it was also some sort of a business trip for him, he had to deal with some sales and another 2 of his friends followed him there as well, so there were four of us..though there's only a few of us but it was fun..since kenneth was the manager and means he's the head, so he spent more time with me..lol..but seriously, the reason why he went there was just to bring me for holiday...we ate portugis food for dinner and it was extremely tasty...*yum yum*..
the next morning, we left for KL... i overnight there for another night though..and yes, it was the eve of my birthday, so kenneth, mel and friends wanted to countdown together with me..and indeed i had a fun time in the club...some UK guys came approaching me asking me for a stick of cigarette..my god, what a way to "get a girl"..anyway i didn't bother and lucky kenneth was there to stop him though..haha..had fun till 1 somthing in the night and when back up to the hotel to rest..seriously, i'm very tires..clubbing two days in a row..and when i was clubbing in malacca, i got a little bit drunk and vomitted too..but not to worry, everything was fine then...
the moment i reached the room, i changed my clothes and went straight to bed..i was seriously sleepy and tired...then the next morning (Saturday-my official 19th birthday), went back home to the apartment together with mel...not long after i reached the apartment, my guys friends called me and asked me whether i wanted to go out for lunch..since i was hungry so i agreed to follow them..after eating they sent me back...then i continue my sleep as i was still so god damn sleepy..
later in the night mellisa told me that there will be a party for me in the apartment..weeks ago she already informed me that she booked me already and i promised her..actually, the party was meant to be a surprised but then it did not cuz if mellisa don't inform me earlier i would have other plans already..so she asked me act surprised..and i said i will try...lol...
but seriously i got shocked..so happen when she went down to help them carry food and stuff, i was in the roon doing something, then i heard funny noises and i thought there was a robber or something so when i went out to check it out, my girl friends shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me..!!i was surprised, seriously i was..i thought they were the only ones who were here instead, mel n ee von told me there is someone outside the grill waiting to see me..so i was like so curious wondering who's that...and guessed what, it was my guy friends, chin huang, aik hoong, weng wai, ben and halim..they were outside holding something covered with a rug..they kept asking me to pull the rug away but i didn't dare cuz i scared they were trying to fool me..in the end i did pull it and i saw two little cute bunnies..they bought RABBITS as my birthday present..how sweet of them..seriously, thank you very much guys...one's name's lui lui and the other one is chai chai..you see how sweet of them to even name it for me..well i have to remind myself i have to take good care of these 2 rabbits since they are now mine..i was damn damn surprised that they came..earlier in the afternoon when i went out for lunch with them, they kept asking me so what am i gonna do later and i told then that i have party in the house...and all of them was like..oohh..enjoy yourself lar..they have things to do and all..then suddenly..*woosh* they appeared in front of the apartment..you guys really made my day...
and also thanx alot too to my dear girl friends who made the party merrier...we had a lot of fun..my dear friends, weng wai and aik hoong smack cakes onto my face..oh my god..i smelled of coffee cuz the cake's flavour was tiramisu..and then i revenged by smaking them back i mean only the guys...haha..all my 5 guy friends got cream on their faces too..sorry guys!! but it was fun too right??!! haha...
my guy friends left earlier and the rest of us went to asia cafe later for a game of pool..i played only one game as i was so exhausted..after playing we went down to the food court and ate supper befoer leaving..in the end, i reached home around 2 in the morning...
the next morning, since i have electrical test on tuesday, so i met up with my friends in uni to study...study till about 2 something, we were all very very hungry and so we went to ss2 to have our meal..we ate in some mamak which is more high class than normal mamak..well although the food there was expensive but it was nice though..left there around 4 and headed for home..later in the night i'm gonna celebrate with my family members..my mum bought them pizza and i blowed another cake..damn i'm old!! lol...
these are what i got for my birthday present, the 2 cute rabbits of course, one white gold necklace, cute cuddly pillows, a halter top, a red earth blusher and eye shadow, accessories and my birthday cake..
well that's all for now..i still havent's celebrate with some other friends who promised to bring me out and my baby-sitter which i will be celebrating with her and her family next week...i have more to come..haha..ain't i happy enough??
YES, i'm definitely satisfied and happy..
once again i thank all those who made my birthday a real happy one..muaks muaks!!!
Sunday, August 14, 2005
list of things
here are a list of things i hope to get and will get:
*Le Sportec sling back
*a pair of Nike sport shoes (this i will definitely get it next month)
*a tatoo at my back, somewhere a little bit above my butt and at the bottom most of my back (i don't know what you call it)
*a new handphone (my old one is kinda "old" already)
*more clothes (never will stop)
*a denim skirt from Levis
*a ring from diamond platinum (hopefully my prince charming will be the one to get it for me..lol)
*a white gold necklace
*dresses (especially the ones from singapore)
*a bikini from Roxy
*a watch from Titus
*a pair of heels from Theme
well, i'll wait and see when will i get all these...no matter how long it takes, i will wait..
p/s: anyone wanna fulfill any items listed above?! you're welcome to...
*Le Sportec sling back
*a pair of Nike sport shoes (this i will definitely get it next month)
*a tatoo at my back, somewhere a little bit above my butt and at the bottom most of my back (i don't know what you call it)
*a new handphone (my old one is kinda "old" already)
*more clothes (never will stop)
*a denim skirt from Levis
*a ring from diamond platinum (hopefully my prince charming will be the one to get it for me..lol)
*a white gold necklace
*dresses (especially the ones from singapore)
*a bikini from Roxy
*a watch from Titus
*a pair of heels from Theme
well, i'll wait and see when will i get all these...no matter how long it takes, i will wait..
p/s: anyone wanna fulfill any items listed above?! you're welcome to...
Saturday, August 13, 2005
chocolates
my baby-sitter came back from Switzerland today...she went there for 2 and the half months!! if only i had the chance to follow her...nevermind, maybe i will have the chance when i'm older...
well, she visited the whole of Switzerland, she also flew to France, Germany and Austria..going to all these places is definitely fun but you wanna know what's the even more fun part?? she bought tonnes of chocolates back!!
this morning, while i was still in my dreamland, the ring of my handphone from my baby-sitter woke me up...i went to her house, have a look at her and then ate chocolates...*yum yum yum*..the chocolates are super delicious...(i'd better watch my weight too)...being as greedy as i can, i pick alot of chocolate as i can back home...seriously, though i brought back alot, there are still alot left on the table...actually, my baby-sitter spent all her money on chocolates...she even exceeded the maximum weight allowed for one passenger..if i'm not mistaken, her total luggage weight was about 35kg..can you imagine how heavy it was??
anyway, all these chocolates are nice...but over eating them will make me fall sick, which i think it's gonna happen (touch wood!)..i have to drink more water...even more than i usually drink...
well, what can i say...I LOVE CHOCOLATES!! who don't anyway? by the way, not forgetting...wei leng you want some chocolates or not?? oh and yeah this message is directed to wei leng ---> sorry for not meeting up with you last friday, i wanted to but my dad ask me to go back home so i couldn't...all because of the stupid haze..i will try to make it up with you though.. see ya soon and do take care...!!
well, she visited the whole of Switzerland, she also flew to France, Germany and Austria..going to all these places is definitely fun but you wanna know what's the even more fun part?? she bought tonnes of chocolates back!!
this morning, while i was still in my dreamland, the ring of my handphone from my baby-sitter woke me up...i went to her house, have a look at her and then ate chocolates...*yum yum yum*..the chocolates are super delicious...(i'd better watch my weight too)...being as greedy as i can, i pick alot of chocolate as i can back home...seriously, though i brought back alot, there are still alot left on the table...actually, my baby-sitter spent all her money on chocolates...she even exceeded the maximum weight allowed for one passenger..if i'm not mistaken, her total luggage weight was about 35kg..can you imagine how heavy it was??
anyway, all these chocolates are nice...but over eating them will make me fall sick, which i think it's gonna happen (touch wood!)..i have to drink more water...even more than i usually drink...
well, what can i say...I LOVE CHOCOLATES!! who don't anyway? by the way, not forgetting...wei leng you want some chocolates or not?? oh and yeah this message is directed to wei leng ---> sorry for not meeting up with you last friday, i wanted to but my dad ask me to go back home so i couldn't...all because of the stupid haze..i will try to make it up with you though.. see ya soon and do take care...!!
Friday, August 12, 2005
birthdays = bankrupt
seriously, my purse is running out of money...as days pass, the amount of notes in my purse is getting lesser..beginning of the month, i find it difficult to button my purse..now's is easy...this means...*you know lar*...morover, this month most of my friends birthday are my close friends...OMG...!! nevermind..i have to budget the following month...
p/s: sometimes, at times like this i really hope money will fall down from the sky..(i know everyone will definitely hope for that to happen!)
*BIG HINT ---> my special date is coming..lol..*
p/s: sometimes, at times like this i really hope money will fall down from the sky..(i know everyone will definitely hope for that to happen!)
*BIG HINT ---> my special date is coming..lol..*
hazardous haze and Happy Birthday Aik Hoong!!
this haze started since last tuesday..i remembered after my computing lab class, the uni was foggy and it smelled of smoke..at first i thought somewhere near the university was burning but actually it wasn't..the smoke came from Sumatera..my gosh..on fire again??! i wonder whatelse is there to burn over there??
anyway the haze got worst... in Sunway, yesterday was the worst...right after my electrical lecture, when we got out of the lecture theatre, we could actually smell smoke...the air was no longer fresh...all of us are breathing "smoke"...because of the haze, everyone is somehow, turning upside down..we can't think properly, can't breathe properly, eyes are getting red and teary, nose becoming more sensitive, keep sneezing and etc..anyway, the air is getting much better but seriously, the rain should better come soon to make sure the air is perfectly clear from this hazardous haze...
besides the damn haze, this whole week went well...it was Aik Hoong's birthday on Tuesday...in the morning, we celebrated in uni, he blowed his birthday cake and as usual, a birthday wish will never be complete without the "cream war"...always, after when one blows the candle, ones face will be filled with cream...everyone had fun thought...in the evening, the 5 of us (me, chin huang, halim, weng wai and ben) brought Aik Hoong to Renaissance, KL to celebrate his birthday again...since it was a 4/5 stars hotel, we wore presentable clothes...we took a group picture (i'll try to upload it when i'm free)...all of us look nice..honestly...well, it was a buffet dinner..so it's definitely eat as much as you can...we took our own sweet time eating...for the first time i ate oyster (i don't quite like it)...besides that, the food was tasty and of course the price was also delicious..lol..well, as long as all of us enjoyed ourselves it doesn't matter much...and indeed we did...
oh yeah..i forgot..on Monday which is one day before Aik Hoong's birthday, the 5 of us, went to midvalley to find for his present...we walked and walked and walked but we couldn't find anything that suits him...then we thought of going to 1 Utama instead to get his present..the rest wanted to go back, left me and chin huang..you see, i heard things wrongly..at first i thought chin huang told me this.." we will proceed to 1U to find Aik Hoong's present, since it's already 6 something, we will eat dinner outside first then only i will fetch you back cause i wanna avoid the traffic jam"... but actually he said this "we will proceed to 1U to find Aik Hoong's present, since it's already 6 something, we will eat dinner in my house with my family members then only i will fetch you back to your apartment cause i wanna avoid the traffic jam"...oh my fucking god..i thought i heard the earlier conversation so i agreed with him..then ben was like.." you sure you wanna go eat with his family member??" i was like...HUH?? wtf..!! i heard things wrongly and i already agreed with him..shit shit shit..!!! i freaked out when i ben told me..and i was like..how how how?? i don't want to eat dinner in HIS HOUSE!! i wanna eat outside..but i cannot..i kept telling him " i'll pass you the money and why don't you go buy yourself lar.. " and he was like..."serious ar??".. in the end, i ended up following him...throughout the whole journey, my heart's beating damn fast...i'm fucking shy to eat with his family...it's not like as if his my boyfriend, if he is then things are different but his not..(by the way, don't get me wrong..i DO NOT have anything towards him, he's just my good friend that's why we are close)..lucky, time pass fast...after about 1 hours plus, he fetched me back..this time since i was there, he took the opportunity to drive his dad's BMW instead of his small mini Tiara..the best part is, the dad followed!!! lol...his dad kept asking me to sit in front with chin huang and i kept denying, but i still ended up sitting in front..usually, chin huang drives like a 'racer'..since the dad is in the car, haha..he had to drive slow and steady...*i think his hands must be sweating*..lol..
-signing off-
Sunday, August 07, 2005
blogging for fun
fyi mummy: you still owe me a pair of Nike shoes and a bottle of either "CD" or "Anna Sui"'s perfume..but nevermind, i'm not in a hurry so i'll wait patiently...like people say, patient is a virtue..lol..
i sound damn greedy hey...lol...well, it's my birthday month, of course i'll be more greedy than usual right??!! i think everyone will feel the same too i presume..anyway, i'm just feeling lucky and happy..
glad to have parents who loves me so much, to have friends that are super caring and supportive and for all the fun time that "that special someone" spent with me...
i sound damn greedy hey...lol...well, it's my birthday month, of course i'll be more greedy than usual right??!! i think everyone will feel the same too i presume..anyway, i'm just feeling lucky and happy..
glad to have parents who loves me so much, to have friends that are super caring and supportive and for all the fun time that "that special someone" spent with me...
Saturday, August 06, 2005
why?
i'm fucking speechless...a lot of "why" questions are running in my mind..i'm very very confused with my feelings right now...when i though things were going on smoothly..something have to "pop" up...*sigh*...someone, anyone, please help me!!
Sunday, July 31, 2005
shopping, shopping and more shopping
everyone knows it's the 'Mega Sales' now..i went to 1 Utama last sunday with my mum and dad..met up with mel and joleen there..since they'll be going to midvalley afterthat so i followed them there..but too bad my mum is not following, so i had to spend as much as i can in 1 Utama... =p
and so i did..i bought one levis jeans, 4 spagetti stripe and 3 blouse...that's not the end of my shopping list you see...yesterday, my mum had to attend some high tea with her old friends in sunway, so afterthat we went shopping again..this time i bought another 3 blouse..lol..tell me..how happy can i be?? if you ask me..i don't think my shopping marathon ends here..i still have another month to shop before the sale ends... *smiling*..hope to see more that attracts me in weeks to come...there's only one reason i can think of why my mum actually allows me to shop that much is because my birthday's coming..*a reminder to my friends* haha....
anyway, i'm seriously one lucky girl..that i have to admit!!my friends will know why..
and so i did..i bought one levis jeans, 4 spagetti stripe and 3 blouse...that's not the end of my shopping list you see...yesterday, my mum had to attend some high tea with her old friends in sunway, so afterthat we went shopping again..this time i bought another 3 blouse..lol..tell me..how happy can i be?? if you ask me..i don't think my shopping marathon ends here..i still have another month to shop before the sale ends... *smiling*..hope to see more that attracts me in weeks to come...there's only one reason i can think of why my mum actually allows me to shop that much is because my birthday's coming..*a reminder to my friends* haha....
anyway, i'm seriously one lucky girl..that i have to admit!!my friends will know why..
Saturday, July 23, 2005
something to share
i attended my friend's (see ting) birthday party today..everything were fine till me and two other younger guys were talking about relationships..and the birthday girl joined the conversation too..well when she said..do you think that true love ever exist in this world??....it made me ponder for a while..
yes, does it really exist? honestly i don't think so..here's why...i was once deeply in love but now my heart's shattered into pieces..i have a fragile heart which will get hurt easily..i was so in love till i didn't wanna let him go although we broke up..i cried and moan for 3 months..YES i did..i know it's stupid but i really loved him so much..during my break up period...all my fellow friends and family members will give me one whole lot of advices, i listened but i can never do what they ask me to do..telling me what to do is easy, but for me to DO it..it's difficult, if you ask me, did i totally let him go? then answer is NO...yes i am a happier person now..without him i can live my life to the fullest, but at times when i'm feeling lonely i'll think back of all the memories i had..
sad to say, but he's my first love that's why is hard for me to let go..i don't know why..maybe it's just me..who's trying to be stubborn..now, i'm in dilemma..i don't know how to express it out..but it's still about guys..you know, i really hope i'd never been into a relationship before..when i start to learn what is love, how is it like having a boyfriend who cares for you and learning how to love someone, i can never forget these three things and maybe more that i'd learned...although i'm enjoying my single life, but at times, i can feel there's a hole in my heart which no one can patch it except for the guy i love..
i really envy my close friend, who had never start any relationship before, yes she might have like someone, but she had never love anyone before..and because of this she's such a happy go lucky person, who doesn't know the meaning of love..which makes life much easier now..
i admit that i'm now a girl who's affraid of accepting LOVE...i might want someone to care for me but at the same time i'm affraid to fall for him...i'm affraid that i will get played another time which i cannot afford to let that happen cause if it happen's again, i will suffer from depression..i'm only 19 and yes i know there's still a long way to go...but along this long way, who knows what will happen..
sometimes i hope very much that i can see the future befoer i accept anything because i'm affraid to try..but if i don't try i don't learn..so..*sigh* i really don't know what to do..i leave my fate in god's hands..i wish he'll know what's best for me..
yes, does it really exist? honestly i don't think so..here's why...i was once deeply in love but now my heart's shattered into pieces..i have a fragile heart which will get hurt easily..i was so in love till i didn't wanna let him go although we broke up..i cried and moan for 3 months..YES i did..i know it's stupid but i really loved him so much..during my break up period...all my fellow friends and family members will give me one whole lot of advices, i listened but i can never do what they ask me to do..telling me what to do is easy, but for me to DO it..it's difficult, if you ask me, did i totally let him go? then answer is NO...yes i am a happier person now..without him i can live my life to the fullest, but at times when i'm feeling lonely i'll think back of all the memories i had..
sad to say, but he's my first love that's why is hard for me to let go..i don't know why..maybe it's just me..who's trying to be stubborn..now, i'm in dilemma..i don't know how to express it out..but it's still about guys..you know, i really hope i'd never been into a relationship before..when i start to learn what is love, how is it like having a boyfriend who cares for you and learning how to love someone, i can never forget these three things and maybe more that i'd learned...although i'm enjoying my single life, but at times, i can feel there's a hole in my heart which no one can patch it except for the guy i love..
i really envy my close friend, who had never start any relationship before, yes she might have like someone, but she had never love anyone before..and because of this she's such a happy go lucky person, who doesn't know the meaning of love..which makes life much easier now..
i admit that i'm now a girl who's affraid of accepting LOVE...i might want someone to care for me but at the same time i'm affraid to fall for him...i'm affraid that i will get played another time which i cannot afford to let that happen cause if it happen's again, i will suffer from depression..i'm only 19 and yes i know there's still a long way to go...but along this long way, who knows what will happen..
sometimes i hope very much that i can see the future befoer i accept anything because i'm affraid to try..but if i don't try i don't learn..so..*sigh* i really don't know what to do..i leave my fate in god's hands..i wish he'll know what's best for me..
Saturday, July 09, 2005
i finally started going to the gym again~~
my migraine from yesterday night has not fully recovered..this morning i still felt some pain in my head but then i swallowed one panadol to get rid of it cause if not, i won't have the mood to do anything but lying on the bed..
i did my house chores before i went out..at about 4.30pm, i left the house and went to pyramid..i shopped alone today..*smiles*..it's nice shopping alone once in a while..you don't have to worry about anything when you are alone..you just shop as you wish and you have all the time in the world to shop!! i ended buying another pair of sandals from "nose"..
i left pyramid at 7pm to meet up with chin huang at the elephant walk..he wanted to follow me and weng wai to the gym today...so i fetched him there..and yes, i finally went to the gym..!! after 2 weeks of continuous eating without exercising i think i put on some weight, but surprisingly one friends from gym say i didn't...lol..gosh i'm so happy..!!
after gym, since i wanted to eat western food, so we went to ss3 to have our...how do i call this?? i didn't have my dinner and by the time we finish gym and all it's already 10..so maybe supper lar?? i rushed home immediately after supper cause i will be going to malacca tomorro with my aunty..!! i know i know i'm damn happening *perasannya* haha but i can't help it..it's holiday and i need to enjoy before uni starts..!!
got to go!! i have to wake up at 7.30am cause my aunty will be fetching me from my house at about 8am..so adios..!! will blog about malacca when i'm back..~~
i did my house chores before i went out..at about 4.30pm, i left the house and went to pyramid..i shopped alone today..*smiles*..it's nice shopping alone once in a while..you don't have to worry about anything when you are alone..you just shop as you wish and you have all the time in the world to shop!! i ended buying another pair of sandals from "nose"..
i left pyramid at 7pm to meet up with chin huang at the elephant walk..he wanted to follow me and weng wai to the gym today...so i fetched him there..and yes, i finally went to the gym..!! after 2 weeks of continuous eating without exercising i think i put on some weight, but surprisingly one friends from gym say i didn't...lol..gosh i'm so happy..!!
after gym, since i wanted to eat western food, so we went to ss3 to have our...how do i call this?? i didn't have my dinner and by the time we finish gym and all it's already 10..so maybe supper lar?? i rushed home immediately after supper cause i will be going to malacca tomorro with my aunty..!! i know i know i'm damn happening *perasannya* haha but i can't help it..it's holiday and i need to enjoy before uni starts..!!
got to go!! i have to wake up at 7.30am cause my aunty will be fetching me from my house at about 8am..so adios..!! will blog about malacca when i'm back..~~
Thursday, July 07, 2005
migraine sucks!!
though i had a wonderful time today, but my migraine attack half way through and this sucks!! i hate migraines as it'll make me feel sick...usually only one part of my head will get damn pain, but today my whole head is damn pain..i cannot sleep, i can hardly talk and i can hardly walk properly..cause when i do, the nerves will bit very very fast and i can feel it..and you wouldn't wanna try that!! i really wonder what the fuck is wrong with my head..!
oh my god...i seriously can't stand the pain, i need a miracle to stop this pain..!! but i know it won't happen..so i have to suffer till the next morning...god bless me!!
oh my god...i seriously can't stand the pain, i need a miracle to stop this pain..!! but i know it won't happen..so i have to suffer till the next morning...god bless me!!
fun, fun and more fun
wei leng, swee sum, chin huang, halim, weng wai, aik hoong and joleen came down to klang today..they met up in my house together with su-lyn, ben, julian and tee yen to have bah kut teh for breakfast..i did not follow them as i had to buy some stuff to cook lunch in the afternoon..anyway i wasn't in the mood to eat bah kut teh today so decided not to follow them..
after breakfast, they went over to ben's house first then at about 2 something they came back to my house to meet up with chin huang..by the way, chin huang did not joined them for bah kut teh too cause who couldn't come down to klang earlier for some reasons..before having late lunch, we played one game called "Taboo"..you know what game is that? well this game is something like charades where one person will act out and the rest of the group members must guessed it..but in taboo you can only talk and no hand actions, there will be a stack of cards, when it's our turn, we flip the card and see what it sayw on the card and we describe it so your group members can gguess what's the word...but in the card, there will be a list of words that you cannot say while describing it to your members..and the best part is, you have to fast cause there's a time limit for it..and of course we had fun during the game..we laughed and laughed non-stop..it's funny to look at the person when he/she's trying to make the members guess what word is it...
at about 6 pm, we left for telok gong to have out dinner..i know i know it's kinda early to have dinner but some of them had to leave early but in the end those who had to leave early didn't joined us for dinner..so what the heck! since we're all out of the house, let's just get there..lol
the seven of us ordered 6 dishes..telok gong = seafood...yummy..!!
this is really one sinful holiday..lol..i pratically eat a lot everyday..but wtf..!! when uni starts.. i'll be food deprive so what the heck! i have to eat all i can during the holidays lar..!!
after breakfast, they went over to ben's house first then at about 2 something they came back to my house to meet up with chin huang..by the way, chin huang did not joined them for bah kut teh too cause who couldn't come down to klang earlier for some reasons..before having late lunch, we played one game called "Taboo"..you know what game is that? well this game is something like charades where one person will act out and the rest of the group members must guessed it..but in taboo you can only talk and no hand actions, there will be a stack of cards, when it's our turn, we flip the card and see what it sayw on the card and we describe it so your group members can gguess what's the word...but in the card, there will be a list of words that you cannot say while describing it to your members..and the best part is, you have to fast cause there's a time limit for it..and of course we had fun during the game..we laughed and laughed non-stop..it's funny to look at the person when he/she's trying to make the members guess what word is it...
at about 6 pm, we left for telok gong to have out dinner..i know i know it's kinda early to have dinner but some of them had to leave early but in the end those who had to leave early didn't joined us for dinner..so what the heck! since we're all out of the house, let's just get there..lol
the seven of us ordered 6 dishes..telok gong = seafood...yummy..!!
this is really one sinful holiday..lol..i pratically eat a lot everyday..but wtf..!! when uni starts.. i'll be food deprive so what the heck! i have to eat all i can during the holidays lar..!!
i miss all of you!!
here goes the list...
*wei leng
*chee chang
*weng jian
*poh ting
*zhao phin
*kah kiat
*koon aw
*chun wei
*tian han
*brian
*eugene
*daw bin
*kin hoong
*benjamin
*su-lyn
*weng wai
*kok fung
*ee sern
*jun xue
*amit
*kenny
*soon heng
*flora
*denise
*natalie
*yoong kang
*steph
*adelynn
these are all my ex-classmates from s10 last year during SAM..i really miss them A LOT!
i'm very lucky to meet up with most of them today..especially those whom i hardly see..chee chang, zhao phin, weng jian, poh ting, chun wei, koon aw and soon heng...
this morning i went to KL to do some shopping together with my close friends, su-lyn and ee von..then i met up with a friend of mine for lunch..spent about 4 hours there and then left for home early as i had to meet up with my ex-classmates for dinner in sunway...well, this gathering thingy was a last minute plan..it was only planned at 10 something in the night if i'm not mistaken..ain't we crazy?!! lol..anyway, it did work out! i was so so happy to meet all of them..i can't express how i felt at the moment when i saw all of them..seriously..there was like some kind of bond we had together last year..honestly speaking last year was one of the best class that i had ever been..the people in the class were marvellous!! we always chill out together and when for a lot of outings together too...i miss those times we had together as well...
we ate steamboat for dinner..it's buffet style..so eat all you can!! and guess what the restaurant's name is "yuen's steamboat"..." i should tell them.."hey, you name your restaurant after me! so, you should give me discount for eating here"..lol...we took lots of pictures..see, if i have the time, i'll post it up..frankly speaking the steamboat wasn't that delicious, but the chicken wings were!!
though all of us are now separated, going our own ways, but we still contact one another..that's the best part..we still try to call everyone out to meet once in a while except for those who are studying abroad..well when they come back to malaysia we will find them too..i hope to see more of them in future..i hope to have more of this kinda gatherings too..
p/s: THANX TO EVERYBODY WHO TURNED UP TODAY..I ENJOYED MYSELF VERY MUCH AND I HOPE YOU DID TOO..!! I'M VERY VERY HAPPY TODAY TO SEE ALL OF YOU..!!
MISS YOU GUYS, LOVE YOU GUYS AND DO TAKE CARE...MUAKSS..!!
*wei leng
*chee chang
*weng jian
*poh ting
*zhao phin
*kah kiat
*koon aw
*chun wei
*tian han
*brian
*eugene
*daw bin
*kin hoong
*benjamin
*su-lyn
*weng wai
*kok fung
*ee sern
*jun xue
*amit
*kenny
*soon heng
*flora
*denise
*natalie
*yoong kang
*steph
*adelynn
these are all my ex-classmates from s10 last year during SAM..i really miss them A LOT!
i'm very lucky to meet up with most of them today..especially those whom i hardly see..chee chang, zhao phin, weng jian, poh ting, chun wei, koon aw and soon heng...
this morning i went to KL to do some shopping together with my close friends, su-lyn and ee von..then i met up with a friend of mine for lunch..spent about 4 hours there and then left for home early as i had to meet up with my ex-classmates for dinner in sunway...well, this gathering thingy was a last minute plan..it was only planned at 10 something in the night if i'm not mistaken..ain't we crazy?!! lol..anyway, it did work out! i was so so happy to meet all of them..i can't express how i felt at the moment when i saw all of them..seriously..there was like some kind of bond we had together last year..honestly speaking last year was one of the best class that i had ever been..the people in the class were marvellous!! we always chill out together and when for a lot of outings together too...i miss those times we had together as well...
we ate steamboat for dinner..it's buffet style..so eat all you can!! and guess what the restaurant's name is "yuen's steamboat"..." i should tell them.."hey, you name your restaurant after me! so, you should give me discount for eating here"..lol...we took lots of pictures..see, if i have the time, i'll post it up..frankly speaking the steamboat wasn't that delicious, but the chicken wings were!!
though all of us are now separated, going our own ways, but we still contact one another..that's the best part..we still try to call everyone out to meet once in a while except for those who are studying abroad..well when they come back to malaysia we will find them too..i hope to see more of them in future..i hope to have more of this kinda gatherings too..
p/s: THANX TO EVERYBODY WHO TURNED UP TODAY..I ENJOYED MYSELF VERY MUCH AND I HOPE YOU DID TOO..!! I'M VERY VERY HAPPY TODAY TO SEE ALL OF YOU..!!
MISS YOU GUYS, LOVE YOU GUYS AND DO TAKE CARE...MUAKSS..!!
Monday, July 04, 2005
one sinful holiday
i'm back from hollidays..!!so, anyone miss me??!! lol..time passes by really fast..last tuesday i was in ipoh and yesterday i was back in klang...home sweet home..i was supposed to blog yesterday but i ended up talking on the phone so i couldn't concentrate..therefore, sorry for this late post!
i'm supposed to lose some weight during this holidays..but i don't think it'll ever work..on the first day itself when i reached ipoh, i ate one whole plate of noodles..it's tuesday, so they had pasar malam that night! and yes, i couldn't resist it..6 of us came up to ipoh..plus mel, there were 7 of us..we bought almost every food which looks delicious..the amount, was full with the food we bought back home...people will be surprised with the amount we eat..i'm telling you i have good appetite..unless my "aunty" visits me..if not, hell, i live to eat! so what do you expect?! lol
then the next morning, mel brought all of us in ONE car..so you can imagine 7 people in one car..the car must be heavy, morover we ate so much the night before to have our breakfast..and then again..eat eat eat..afterthat, we visited some temple to feed the tortoise and then to another temple to see monkeys..later we dropped by IPOH parade (yes, i have to remind myself is IPOH parade, cause i usually say KLANG parade..haha) pratically, my whole ipoh trip was full with fun and of course...eat and eat and eat everyday...even till the last day(friday), wei leng and swee sum brought me out for dim sum (yum yum)..
in the afternoon, i met up with my parents in jusco, they will be bringing me up to cameron for 3 days..and there goes again..as people say, cold weather will cause us to eat more...and so i did..lol..i ate ALOT... every night i'll go to their pasar malam and buy all those junk food...my favourite is the fried sweet potato balls...talking about it now really makes me feel like eating eat again!! nevermind..i have to remind myself..( eating spree is over...i'm back in KL so, i have to visit the gym as often as i can)
and today, i watched "war of the worlds" with my bunch of girlfriends at the same time, we celebrated ee von's early birthday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!! well, the movie was nice but the ending was not understandble..anyway, it's worth watching...to me..
i'm kinda tired, so i'll stop here for today..this is just the briefing of my holidays..i will let you know in detail maybe tomorrow when i'm free..chao!
i'm supposed to lose some weight during this holidays..but i don't think it'll ever work..on the first day itself when i reached ipoh, i ate one whole plate of noodles..it's tuesday, so they had pasar malam that night! and yes, i couldn't resist it..6 of us came up to ipoh..plus mel, there were 7 of us..we bought almost every food which looks delicious..the amount, was full with the food we bought back home...people will be surprised with the amount we eat..i'm telling you i have good appetite..unless my "aunty" visits me..if not, hell, i live to eat! so what do you expect?! lol
then the next morning, mel brought all of us in ONE car..so you can imagine 7 people in one car..the car must be heavy, morover we ate so much the night before to have our breakfast..and then again..eat eat eat..afterthat, we visited some temple to feed the tortoise and then to another temple to see monkeys..later we dropped by IPOH parade (yes, i have to remind myself is IPOH parade, cause i usually say KLANG parade..haha) pratically, my whole ipoh trip was full with fun and of course...eat and eat and eat everyday...even till the last day(friday), wei leng and swee sum brought me out for dim sum (yum yum)..
in the afternoon, i met up with my parents in jusco, they will be bringing me up to cameron for 3 days..and there goes again..as people say, cold weather will cause us to eat more...and so i did..lol..i ate ALOT... every night i'll go to their pasar malam and buy all those junk food...my favourite is the fried sweet potato balls...talking about it now really makes me feel like eating eat again!! nevermind..i have to remind myself..( eating spree is over...i'm back in KL so, i have to visit the gym as often as i can)
and today, i watched "war of the worlds" with my bunch of girlfriends at the same time, we celebrated ee von's early birthday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!! well, the movie was nice but the ending was not understandble..anyway, it's worth watching...to me..
i'm kinda tired, so i'll stop here for today..this is just the briefing of my holidays..i will let you know in detail maybe tomorrow when i'm free..chao!
Monday, June 27, 2005
my legs are killing me
because of yesterday's run, my legs are now extremely pain and aching!! i can barely stand long and walk properly...i drag my legs when i walk..especially coming down the stairs..oh my god..i'm like an old lady..i take step by step just to get down the stairs..usually i'll take less than half a minute to reach downstairs, now i take more than a minute to climb down the stairs..
apart from suffering this stupid pain...i went to pyramid to watch Initial D with my friends...i love the movie..oh gosh...this really makes me feel like getting a boyfriend who's a racer!! lol..the racing scenes are superb!! if anyone of you haven't watch this movie, please do so..you won't regret it!
anyway, off i go now..got to sleep early as i will be leaving for ipoh tomorrow, to visit mel's parents and also my ipoh friends...so joleen and simon, here i come..!!
apart from suffering this stupid pain...i went to pyramid to watch Initial D with my friends...i love the movie..oh gosh...this really makes me feel like getting a boyfriend who's a racer!! lol..the racing scenes are superb!! if anyone of you haven't watch this movie, please do so..you won't regret it!
anyway, off i go now..got to sleep early as i will be leaving for ipoh tomorrow, to visit mel's parents and also my ipoh friends...so joleen and simon, here i come..!!
Sunday, June 26, 2005
10 km run = killing myself!
and so i did went for the 10km marathon..actually i wanted not to go,but since wei leng pursue me to go, so i agreed..imagining yourself, running for 10km...oh my..seriously it's damn tiring..halfway running i felt like fainting...and the best part is, this damn marathon has no pit-stop for water...WTF?!? i was like running and running and hoping to see some water..but NOTHING and morover i'm totally dehydrating already! blessing in disguise i managed to finish the run without fainting or anything....after the run, my legs were like jelly..i could barely stand up straight..we when home after resting for a while..all of us was fucking tired..i only got 2 hours of sleep before running..so by the time i reached home, i quickly bathe and went to bed...i slept for about 4 hours..thank god no one disturbed me..!
that's all for today..i'm having a very massive migraine now and the rest of the day was just sleeping...lol
that's all for today..i'm having a very massive migraine now and the rest of the day was just sleeping...lol
Saturday, June 25, 2005
so far so good
before you read this, let me warn you that this post will be a long one...since my final paper ended last monday, i was enjoying myself to the max till today and that is why i couldn't find time to blog..=p
here goes, right after the final paper, physics, my friends and i went to Redbox to have our lunch at the same time to sing (a from of releasing stress..lol) anyway it wasn't that fun though but anyway at least we had something to do rather than going home and sleep...gosh..such no life! after 3 we had to get out and afterthat we couldn't think of what to do..it's amazing that everytime while we were in the uni studying for finals, we had lots of stuff in mind that we wanna do, but because of exams we couldn't and after exams, we run out of ideas on what to do to waste our time...
the next morning, mel and i went shopping!! my ever favourite hobby..lol! first, we went to bukit bintang, then to klcc for lunch..there i bought one Esprit blouse and then to midvalley..so happened it was a J-card member day so the dman shopping mall was crowded with people..as usual i ended up getting a bad migraine.. i bought one Padini Authentics blouse and one heels from midvalley...we also watched Mr & Mrs Smith...nice movie..after the movie we bought dinner and headed home..throughout the journey back home, mel and i were wondering what are we gonna do later in the night..i guess God answered our question, one of our friends asked us out for a drink..we went to ss15 for our first drink, then afterthat went to asia cafe for a while then afterthat followed my friend to damansara..he was searching for the place where the car drifting event will be held, and afterthat we had another drink in ss2..people call it the "wai sek kai"...we reached home about 3 and then straight away i entered my dreamland as i was extremely sleepy...
the next day we were figuring out where to go..and guess what we ended up in midvalley again..!! for the second time...this time i bought one red tube top from MNG..they were having some big sale there..my gosh the crowd was massive!! afterthat we returned home early cause we'll be going clubbing later in night...and so at around 9 my friend came and pick us up from the apartment then off we go..as usual, KL's always jam so we reached there around 10..we were supposed to meet up with another group of people in Thai Club first, since not all of them are there yet we went to Atmosphere for a while..it was jam pack as the casts for the movie "initial d" were in the club...anyway we just went there to look at the cars..after a while we went back to thai club..seriously this club is full of working people hardly any of my age...and the best part is, although the club is fucking full with working people i don't know why but one working guy got attracted to me!!oh gosh.. anyway, apart from that, i still enjoyed myself, dancing and drinking..
about 2, 3 hours later, me, rain, yen kim and david flew over to atmosphere and mel with another friend stayed back in thai club..and AGAIN while dancing, some "ah pek" came and introduce himself to me..he even asked for my number and i told him i'll give you later (and the fact that i WON'T give it to him at all..!!) after a while he stopped dancing and went back to his table..i was all the while on the dance floor moving the beat..every single fucking moment when i turned to where he's sitting, he will wave at me..hoping that i'll acknowledge him and then giving him my phone number..gosh he's so fucking desperate..i so fucking wanted to tell this old fucker "go look at yourself in the mirror..and look at your damn age!! you wanna try to get a girl this young? no way!! just FUCK OFF..!! go get someone your age "ah pek"! his desperation really scared the hell out of me..and men nowadays will do anything when they are desperate..maybe not all but most! i told a guy friend of mine just to help me watch out this old bugger..when i went out the club and quickly ran away as far as possible..i'm afraid that he'll chase after me to asked for my number..thank GOD he didn't!!
we went back to thai club to meet up with mel and friend and afterthat we went to "steven's corner" in OUG to "yumcha"..reached home about 4 plus..and went to bed right away..damn exhausted!!
the next day, by the time we woke up it was already time for lunch, so we decided to eat in Cabana..as usual we had to take the bus there, so we allocated time for us to get ready and decided to take the 2.20pm bus..usually the bus will NOT be punctual..but FUCK this time the bus was Fucking punctual!!!while walking from the apartment from far we saw the bus..and we tried running to catch the bus but sadly we missed it..!! fuck fuck fuck!!! so we waited for another one hour for the next fucking bus to come...by the time we reached ss15 i'm almost half dead..was so tired and hungry!! we spent a few hours in the cafe and by 6 we were off to the gym..after gym, i went out with chin huang, ben and weng wai to puchong to have a drink and afterthat back to ss15 to play CS..lol..it's been a long time since i played that game..luckily my shots were still ok..lol
on friday the four of us, me, ben, chin huang and aik hoong overnighted in weng wai's house..we played some game called "speed" using poker cards..it was damn fun and at the same time funny..there was once where i laughed until i bang my own head on the damn floor..*ouch*
wake up the next morning, had our lunch together and then i went back home...
so far my holiday's going on well and i hope it will continue till the very last day of my holiday...
off i go now..will update you guys about my holidays..~~!!
here goes, right after the final paper, physics, my friends and i went to Redbox to have our lunch at the same time to sing (a from of releasing stress..lol) anyway it wasn't that fun though but anyway at least we had something to do rather than going home and sleep...gosh..such no life! after 3 we had to get out and afterthat we couldn't think of what to do..it's amazing that everytime while we were in the uni studying for finals, we had lots of stuff in mind that we wanna do, but because of exams we couldn't and after exams, we run out of ideas on what to do to waste our time...
the next morning, mel and i went shopping!! my ever favourite hobby..lol! first, we went to bukit bintang, then to klcc for lunch..there i bought one Esprit blouse and then to midvalley..so happened it was a J-card member day so the dman shopping mall was crowded with people..as usual i ended up getting a bad migraine.. i bought one Padini Authentics blouse and one heels from midvalley...we also watched Mr & Mrs Smith...nice movie..after the movie we bought dinner and headed home..throughout the journey back home, mel and i were wondering what are we gonna do later in the night..i guess God answered our question, one of our friends asked us out for a drink..we went to ss15 for our first drink, then afterthat went to asia cafe for a while then afterthat followed my friend to damansara..he was searching for the place where the car drifting event will be held, and afterthat we had another drink in ss2..people call it the "wai sek kai"...we reached home about 3 and then straight away i entered my dreamland as i was extremely sleepy...
the next day we were figuring out where to go..and guess what we ended up in midvalley again..!! for the second time...this time i bought one red tube top from MNG..they were having some big sale there..my gosh the crowd was massive!! afterthat we returned home early cause we'll be going clubbing later in night...and so at around 9 my friend came and pick us up from the apartment then off we go..as usual, KL's always jam so we reached there around 10..we were supposed to meet up with another group of people in Thai Club first, since not all of them are there yet we went to Atmosphere for a while..it was jam pack as the casts for the movie "initial d" were in the club...anyway we just went there to look at the cars..after a while we went back to thai club..seriously this club is full of working people hardly any of my age...and the best part is, although the club is fucking full with working people i don't know why but one working guy got attracted to me!!oh gosh.. anyway, apart from that, i still enjoyed myself, dancing and drinking..
about 2, 3 hours later, me, rain, yen kim and david flew over to atmosphere and mel with another friend stayed back in thai club..and AGAIN while dancing, some "ah pek" came and introduce himself to me..he even asked for my number and i told him i'll give you later (and the fact that i WON'T give it to him at all..!!) after a while he stopped dancing and went back to his table..i was all the while on the dance floor moving the beat..every single fucking moment when i turned to where he's sitting, he will wave at me..hoping that i'll acknowledge him and then giving him my phone number..gosh he's so fucking desperate..i so fucking wanted to tell this old fucker "go look at yourself in the mirror..and look at your damn age!! you wanna try to get a girl this young? no way!! just FUCK OFF..!! go get someone your age "ah pek"! his desperation really scared the hell out of me..and men nowadays will do anything when they are desperate..maybe not all but most! i told a guy friend of mine just to help me watch out this old bugger..when i went out the club and quickly ran away as far as possible..i'm afraid that he'll chase after me to asked for my number..thank GOD he didn't!!
we went back to thai club to meet up with mel and friend and afterthat we went to "steven's corner" in OUG to "yumcha"..reached home about 4 plus..and went to bed right away..damn exhausted!!
the next day, by the time we woke up it was already time for lunch, so we decided to eat in Cabana..as usual we had to take the bus there, so we allocated time for us to get ready and decided to take the 2.20pm bus..usually the bus will NOT be punctual..but FUCK this time the bus was Fucking punctual!!!while walking from the apartment from far we saw the bus..and we tried running to catch the bus but sadly we missed it..!! fuck fuck fuck!!! so we waited for another one hour for the next fucking bus to come...by the time we reached ss15 i'm almost half dead..was so tired and hungry!! we spent a few hours in the cafe and by 6 we were off to the gym..after gym, i went out with chin huang, ben and weng wai to puchong to have a drink and afterthat back to ss15 to play CS..lol..it's been a long time since i played that game..luckily my shots were still ok..lol
on friday the four of us, me, ben, chin huang and aik hoong overnighted in weng wai's house..we played some game called "speed" using poker cards..it was damn fun and at the same time funny..there was once where i laughed until i bang my own head on the damn floor..*ouch*
wake up the next morning, had our lunch together and then i went back home...
so far my holiday's going on well and i hope it will continue till the very last day of my holiday...
off i go now..will update you guys about my holidays..~~!!
Saturday, June 18, 2005
batman
yes, so the title says it all, i watched Batman with my cousin and two other friends today..in the morning i attended my ex-school's (MGS) prefect's buffet..met some of my long lost friends there, as in my ex schoolmates..some still as short as ever, some as thin as ever, some put on weight, some became more girlish and some remain the same..well, i hope i didn't changed much too..*smiles*
am feeling much better today as compared to yesterday, yesterday i was full with anger and frustration..if anyone tried to pull the hell out of me they'll be dead by then! i don't know why, but i was damn frus! i was damn frus till i had the "don't you dare mess with me" phrase on my face..
gad damn it! only me and god knows what happened to me last night, anyway let's forget about that..moving on, i was supposed to study physics..it's my last paper one monday..after this i'll be enjoying myself to the max! by the 14th of july you'll see me getting nervous and scared as my doom day is here!
signing off..seriously need to study..i will update you after my last oaper
adios~~and wish me luck =p
am feeling much better today as compared to yesterday, yesterday i was full with anger and frustration..if anyone tried to pull the hell out of me they'll be dead by then! i don't know why, but i was damn frus! i was damn frus till i had the "don't you dare mess with me" phrase on my face..
gad damn it! only me and god knows what happened to me last night, anyway let's forget about that..moving on, i was supposed to study physics..it's my last paper one monday..after this i'll be enjoying myself to the max! by the 14th of july you'll see me getting nervous and scared as my doom day is here!
signing off..seriously need to study..i will update you after my last oaper
adios~~and wish me luck =p
Friday, June 17, 2005
just too frustrated
nobody will understand my situation now...nobody can help me but myself...but the thing is i don't know how to help myself..
anyone care to help? i'm sicked and tired of facing problems..life before college and uni was 1 million times much better than this..during high school, the word "sad", "unhappy"and "frustrated" was never in my personal dictionary..laughing was my daily routine and you can hardly see me sad...i hate who i am now..
p/s: i think, in this world, selfish people will survive and generous people will die
anyone care to help? i'm sicked and tired of facing problems..life before college and uni was 1 million times much better than this..during high school, the word "sad", "unhappy"and "frustrated" was never in my personal dictionary..laughing was my daily routine and you can hardly see me sad...i hate who i am now..
p/s: i think, in this world, selfish people will survive and generous people will die
tell me what am i supposed to do
when i'm generous, people take advantage of me, when i'm selfish, people don't like it...
nobody like selfish people right? so you, you and you out there PLEASE don't take advantage of anyone..respect friends for who they are, don't used them..
well before i proceed, if i've used anyone of you before, forgive me..seriously i'm tired of life people out there who took advantage of me, you know who you are, and i hope you won't continue doing it..i'm sicked of being used as a friend..i will be there for you if you need me and i will remain as your true friend...but please i'm begging you don't take me for granted!
by the way, i guess everyone know's this song "Rumours" right? i like that song so much now...i'm dedicating this song to you...
i just don't understand why? WHY do some people have to use their friends to get what they want? WHY do some people just don't bother whether they hurt their friends or not? WHY are they so damn selfish when WE must be generous to them? WHY does one still one's happiness away?
and there goes, WHY must someone come and make me miserable when i'm just beginning to enjoy my life? can't people leave me alone when i'm having the happiest time in my life? when my tears of sorrow's going away and i'm starting to smile, do you really have to come and destroy it? what if I try to destroy your's? do you like it? DEFINITELY NO, right?
whatever it is... i don't know what's there to say anymore, i just hope that things will be as always remain like it used to be..
nobody like selfish people right? so you, you and you out there PLEASE don't take advantage of anyone..respect friends for who they are, don't used them..
well before i proceed, if i've used anyone of you before, forgive me..seriously i'm tired of life people out there who took advantage of me, you know who you are, and i hope you won't continue doing it..i'm sicked of being used as a friend..i will be there for you if you need me and i will remain as your true friend...but please i'm begging you don't take me for granted!
by the way, i guess everyone know's this song "Rumours" right? i like that song so much now...i'm dedicating this song to you...
i just don't understand why? WHY do some people have to use their friends to get what they want? WHY do some people just don't bother whether they hurt their friends or not? WHY are they so damn selfish when WE must be generous to them? WHY does one still one's happiness away?
and there goes, WHY must someone come and make me miserable when i'm just beginning to enjoy my life? can't people leave me alone when i'm having the happiest time in my life? when my tears of sorrow's going away and i'm starting to smile, do you really have to come and destroy it? what if I try to destroy your's? do you like it? DEFINITELY NO, right?
whatever it is... i don't know what's there to say anymore, i just hope that things will be as always remain like it used to be..
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
not blogging for a while
i'm having my finals..and so i will not be able to blog much...
my holidays will start as soon as my last paper ends, which is on the 20th of june..
so see ya!
my holidays will start as soon as my last paper ends, which is on the 20th of june..
so see ya!
Saturday, May 28, 2005
never knew...
Ok you are a romantic anime girl and you love and
care for a lot of people.There is no evil in
you soul or your heart.Though sometimes people
don't feel the same way as you do you keep on
trying to change their mind.You love to help
people out and you are always happy.Keep on
trying to make the whole world smile because
you know smiles are contagious ^_^.Oh and if it
seems like there is nobody who could love you
as much as you could love them it doesn't
matter the thing is that the only thing that
matters is that he cares and loves you and it
doesn't matter how much well maybe it does but
don't set you standards to high cuz then you'll
find nobody
If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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Monday, May 23, 2005
feeling guilty~
my finals are approaching and i can still go out with my parents and also su-lyn..lol
how great am i? suddenly, i'm just feeling very guilty..i have to start planning my timetable properly..i'll have to start maximizing my studying hours..if i don't, hell i'm gonna see myself failing (touch wood!) and regretting like shit!
yes i know studying for long hours won't help much, but i'll try to take short short breaks to help me relax my mind a little..really need a miracle!- god bless -
before i end this post, let me tell you what i did today..went to ikea today with mom, dad, and su-lyn (whom has never been there before, her first time there today)..after ikea, it was the apartment..and then to subang parade to have tea in "uncle Lim's" cafe..nice roti bakar they have there but it's expensive..what the heck? once in a blue moon eating the roti bakar there won't kill right? lol..
then the day went on as usual, reached home, watched chinese drama, had dinner and then now blogging..
like i said need to study already..so off i go!
-sayonara!-
how great am i? suddenly, i'm just feeling very guilty..i have to start planning my timetable properly..i'll have to start maximizing my studying hours..if i don't, hell i'm gonna see myself failing (touch wood!) and regretting like shit!
yes i know studying for long hours won't help much, but i'll try to take short short breaks to help me relax my mind a little..really need a miracle!- god bless -
before i end this post, let me tell you what i did today..went to ikea today with mom, dad, and su-lyn (whom has never been there before, her first time there today)..after ikea, it was the apartment..and then to subang parade to have tea in "uncle Lim's" cafe..nice roti bakar they have there but it's expensive..what the heck? once in a blue moon eating the roti bakar there won't kill right? lol..
then the day went on as usual, reached home, watched chinese drama, had dinner and then now blogging..
like i said need to study already..so off i go!
-sayonara!-
exhausted
i was supposed to post this yesterday but while i was halfway through, the laptop's battery "kaboom!"..the battery was running low but i didn't know it will just off in a second! lol...(i just have to admit i'm one jakun in computer stuff)..
i woke up early in the morning to avoid myself from getting a headache..hell i'm weird..i can't sleep too long..then, went downstairs, watched tv and then at around 12 noon i left for gym..
i've been missing gym for the past one week and at the same time i've also been eating a lot! -oh gosh...better hope my weight still remains the same-
after gym i was f**king exhausted! i went for body jam as well as body combat..thought i could sleep when i reached home but too bad couldn't..had some stuff to do.. well, i'm definitely gonna sleep early tonight!
i woke up early in the morning to avoid myself from getting a headache..hell i'm weird..i can't sleep too long..then, went downstairs, watched tv and then at around 12 noon i left for gym..
i've been missing gym for the past one week and at the same time i've also been eating a lot! -oh gosh...better hope my weight still remains the same-
after gym i was f**king exhausted! i went for body jam as well as body combat..thought i could sleep when i reached home but too bad couldn't..had some stuff to do.. well, i'm definitely gonna sleep early tonight!
Saturday, May 21, 2005
wondering why?
hhmm..i guess some of you might wonder why am i blogging at night when i usually can only blog during the day time using the uni's pc..well, i'm using my mum's friend's laptop at the moment...looks like i'm enjoying it..lol
from my previous post i'd said that i'll be shopping in midvalley..so the story continues from here..first of all, followed su-lyn to the SWATCH shop to buy her watch...at the same time i checked my watch's batteries too..you see last year my watch(also a Swatch) stopped..so i tought the batteries are dead, i went to the shop and ask the guy to change for me..few seconds later he came out and told me that the batteries are still 'energetic' enough but the watch's hands still ain't moving..after a while it started to work again..i guess the mechanism going crazy..
and yes, you guessed it right, the same thing happened again...last week when i went up to genting the watch stopped again...i left it on my dressing table for a few days and found it to be working again afterthat...what is wrong? anyway, couldn't careless about it as my finals approaching..
after the watch shop, we went clothes shopping...i bought a shirt from Zara and su-lyn bought one skirt from Topshop..yes, and i finally got my Lancome toner..lol
the next pit-stop was sunway pyramid..i flew all the way there after midvalley to buy my skirt from MNG..well now i'm officially broke, enough said...
p/s: guess i have to budget a lot for my meals the whole of next week..thank god it's the last week of may =p
from my previous post i'd said that i'll be shopping in midvalley..so the story continues from here..first of all, followed su-lyn to the SWATCH shop to buy her watch...at the same time i checked my watch's batteries too..you see last year my watch(also a Swatch) stopped..so i tought the batteries are dead, i went to the shop and ask the guy to change for me..few seconds later he came out and told me that the batteries are still 'energetic' enough but the watch's hands still ain't moving..after a while it started to work again..i guess the mechanism going crazy..
and yes, you guessed it right, the same thing happened again...last week when i went up to genting the watch stopped again...i left it on my dressing table for a few days and found it to be working again afterthat...what is wrong? anyway, couldn't careless about it as my finals approaching..
after the watch shop, we went clothes shopping...i bought a shirt from Zara and su-lyn bought one skirt from Topshop..yes, and i finally got my Lancome toner..lol
the next pit-stop was sunway pyramid..i flew all the way there after midvalley to buy my skirt from MNG..well now i'm officially broke, enough said...
p/s: guess i have to budget a lot for my meals the whole of next week..thank god it's the last week of may =p
an ABC post
i know i know..i've not been blogging lately...sorry for that...
i'm kinda lazy to blog nowadays...busy with studies and projects...just shifted up to sunway..no pc and so i can hardly blog...besides i hardly have the time to use the uni's com..
i'm hoping to get a laptop soon...if i do, i'll assure you guys that i'll blog frequently..
anyway..i can't remember what i've did lately besides sleeping, studying, eating and my other normal daily routine...i've lead quite a stressful live lately due to lotsa stuff...-only god knows what-
oh yeah! i remembered something..guess what my friends and i went to genting last friday...ain't we nuts? after gym we went to Jalan Alor for late dinner and after that we actually decided to drive up to genting at around 1 something in the morning and came back to sunway at 6 in the morning..lol...i know it's crazy but it was quite fun though....i really miss genting..i would like to go there together with my s10 classmates again...
you will be wondering what am i doing in uni on a saturday..well' i'm here again to use the pc to practice my HYSYS..i'm having my HYSYS test this tuesday...i'm on the merge of getting bored with it and so i'm blogging now...
that's all folks..see you in my next post..
~~off to midvalley soon..gotta do some shopping..*chuckles*
i'm kinda lazy to blog nowadays...busy with studies and projects...just shifted up to sunway..no pc and so i can hardly blog...besides i hardly have the time to use the uni's com..
i'm hoping to get a laptop soon...if i do, i'll assure you guys that i'll blog frequently..
anyway..i can't remember what i've did lately besides sleeping, studying, eating and my other normal daily routine...i've lead quite a stressful live lately due to lotsa stuff...-only god knows what-
oh yeah! i remembered something..guess what my friends and i went to genting last friday...ain't we nuts? after gym we went to Jalan Alor for late dinner and after that we actually decided to drive up to genting at around 1 something in the morning and came back to sunway at 6 in the morning..lol...i know it's crazy but it was quite fun though....i really miss genting..i would like to go there together with my s10 classmates again...
you will be wondering what am i doing in uni on a saturday..well' i'm here again to use the pc to practice my HYSYS..i'm having my HYSYS test this tuesday...i'm on the merge of getting bored with it and so i'm blogging now...
that's all folks..see you in my next post..
~~off to midvalley soon..gotta do some shopping..*chuckles*
Friday, May 13, 2005
Friday, May 06, 2005
the continuation..~so called~
sorry for posting this super late...i've been very busy and tired as well..
i've just shifted up to sunway and there's lotsa stuff to be done...
anyway i can't remember what i've done throughout the whole of last week and this week...yesterday, i had my Rube Goldberg Machine Contest for my physics lab..thank god the whole mechanism worked..!! we got the award for being the most messy group..cause the red beans scattered all over the floor..but it doesn't matter..as long it works properly i'm satisfied..lol
i've just shifted up to sunway and there's lotsa stuff to be done...
anyway i can't remember what i've done throughout the whole of last week and this week...yesterday, i had my Rube Goldberg Machine Contest for my physics lab..thank god the whole mechanism worked..!! we got the award for being the most messy group..cause the red beans scattered all over the floor..but it doesn't matter..as long it works properly i'm satisfied..lol
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
one hectic week
hhhmmm...i guess i won't be able to blog through out the whole week..i've been the most busiest lady from last saturday till this coming sunday...the apartment is already ready and all we have to do is wash it...and then by sunday i will be shifting up to sunway already...*finally*..was suppose to shift since april and now it's already may..and my finals is approaching..
well, last saturday, mel's parents came down...we followed them to buy lights..since 8 in the morning till 12 in the midnight i wasn't at home...i was out the whole day...i had replacement classes on saturday and afterthat my friends and i went for a movie then went to the gym and finally met up with mel's parents..
the next day (sunday) woke up damn early in the morning (for a SUNDAY) at about 9am..met up with mel's parents for breakfast and then more lighting shops...oh gosh...my eyes..
since i had to lead mel's parents to kesas highway, so i decided to work out in the gym..return home around 4pm helped my father to fix the new light he bought for my house..
i thought i could rest on monday but NO...i had to get up early to follow my dad to the mechanic's to service my mum's car's air-cond..afterthat at about 3pm, went up to sunway to deliver the lights to the electrician..since the workers weren't there, they kept it in their store room and will only fix it the next day...
...to be continued...
well, last saturday, mel's parents came down...we followed them to buy lights..since 8 in the morning till 12 in the midnight i wasn't at home...i was out the whole day...i had replacement classes on saturday and afterthat my friends and i went for a movie then went to the gym and finally met up with mel's parents..
the next day (sunday) woke up damn early in the morning (for a SUNDAY) at about 9am..met up with mel's parents for breakfast and then more lighting shops...oh gosh...my eyes..
since i had to lead mel's parents to kesas highway, so i decided to work out in the gym..return home around 4pm helped my father to fix the new light he bought for my house..
i thought i could rest on monday but NO...i had to get up early to follow my dad to the mechanic's to service my mum's car's air-cond..afterthat at about 3pm, went up to sunway to deliver the lights to the electrician..since the workers weren't there, they kept it in their store room and will only fix it the next day...
...to be continued...
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