I might seem like a very happy girl, but actually deep down inside me I’m not. Yes, I might have own anything I want because I’m just an only daughter, but what I really want in life has not been achieved yet.

I always try to please someone without knowing whether am I pleasing myself or hurting myself. I’m sick and tired of being like that, but I just can’t take it away from me. Maybe I’m just brought up to behave like that. I give more than I get in returned. Yes, I know there is no harm giving more, but sometimes too much is not a good thing because things will be taken for granted instead.

It’s so difficult to be a human being in this world sometimes. When you’re too good and people get jealous, they’ll talk about you, when you’re bad, they’ll talk about you too. So how? Just be a dog or any pet also better la…Everyday also get food, get sayang, get to go jalan- jalan sometimes. *Sigh*

Will I regret if I’m going to make this decision?

Will my parent be so upset over me?

Will I get the best or the worst from what I’m going to do?

Please tell me…

If I Were a Boy

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it
cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
so they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,
waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think i'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
and you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

I was sick last week and I am sick again this week. I did not go to work yesterday because I was down with a bad migraine due to *ehemmm* woman’s time of the month. If I can take leave for one whole week, I would, not only to rest but also to kill my super free time in the office.

I should have done my training last year so that I could enjoy my holidays this year. Too late to regret as we can’t turned back time. =(

WHAT IF I did not meet you in the first place, will I be happier now?

WHAT IF I had done better, will I be here now?

WHAT IF I hadn’t gone there, will I be like this now?

WHAT IF I had never started in the first place, will I be better off now?

Sometimes, I wonder what life is like if all the “What Ifs” were true.

Am I a bad friend?

Am I a bad daughter?

Am I a bad girlfriend?

Am I a bad person?

I hate myself most of the times for what I have done but I couldn’t stop myself from doing it earlier. Life’s always full of regrets, is just the matter of whether can you leave it and learnt from it or will it haunt you instead to make your life worst? For me, I have learnt from my regrets/mistakes but of course there are still some mistakes we often make though we know we shouldn’t.

I love to chat with older people because I believe their experienced in life are of course much greater than mine. Some maybe some may not. The phrase “It’s easier said than done” it’s always true. I had experienced it many times. Whether is it studies, or love, or safety or whatever! We always learn our lesson when it has already happened and then we fear it.

Another post means another boring day in work. Let’s not talk more about work. Let’s talk about what happen during the weekends.

Friday night:

The 9 of us, ME, Ling Ying, Chin Huang, Halim, Wai Loon, Alex, Meng Sang, Benjamin and Tee Yen went to Hard Rock for our so called results celebration dinner. Everyone did well, so congratulations to everyone including me. All have graduated except for me, Alex, Benjamin and Tee Yen. So while the rest are looking for a job or furthering their studies, the 4 of use named will still continue studying for another semester. Anyway, let’s move on to what happen that night. We reached there at 7.30 pm. It took us 2 hours just to reach there due to the terrible traffic jam moreover it was raining as well, so it’s even worst. Once there, we were on the waiting list since I couldn’t make reservation because it was already full. We waited for about 30 minutes or so before we could get our table and that also we have to squeeze 9 persons to a table which was for 6 persons only. Whatever it is, it was better than nothing.

I’m surprised with the service given by them this time. They were not only rude but bossy as well. Actually, not all the staff there of course but some. And to that “some” you better not pissed me of before I make you worst. Despite me a regular there that you can take me for granted, but most of my friends are just first timers there and this kinda treatment is what we get? Even if you don’t give face to me, at least give face to them. You know, when we ushered to our table, that particular waitress/ter said, after eating I would like to have back this table as there are more reservations to come. I got real fire hot when I heard that statement. “Eh Hello!!! I am your God damn customer alright. We have the right to stay there as long as we want. You don’t have any power to tell us what we are supposed to do. I felt so embarrassed because, not only my friends had to wait so long for the seats, and now, they have to rush while eating? No way I’m gonna let that happened. Thank god, these 2 waiters who helped me out and treat me and my friends so well throughout the night. I am very grateful to have that one particular waiter who’s named should not be mentioned. After dinner, we ordered 2 towers or beer since it was happy hour (RM73) non-happy hour (RM173++) and we played this “seven” game which you should know if you are a frequent drinker (Hint: You can’t say multiples of 7 of number with 7). Halim had his first flaming that night since he got the best thesis award and definitely best student of the year. We shared actually, between me, Alex and Halim. Of course if Halim were to drink it himself, I think his head will be spinning the entire night. Some of them had red face, Alex, Chin Huang, Benjamin, Meng Sang and Wai Loon. Me, my face never turned red even if I’m drunk. Everything else went on fine after that. At around midnight, they left and I stayed as I had to meet my other friends here. FYI, most of the time, every Friday night will be a night where all of us (the entire hard rock gang) will meet up, just like a reunion.

I was there since 8.30pm till 3am. From dinner till clubbing till the end. Usually I will meet up with my hard rock gang at 11pm-12am. But since I had dinner there, so I just stayed all the way. When my friends left, luckily, Bob, Sha Sha and Abang Min was there, so I wasn’t alone. For the entire 3 years I’ve been there I have never heard them stopping customer’s from entering due to “FULL HOUSE”. Usually, the just let people in and tonight was not as crowded as the week before and is already considered “FULL HOUSE”. The GM was there that’s why he was the one who controlled the crowd. Good in a way cause the place will not be to hot and stuffy, knowing that when people start to dance and the band starts to play, the place will be so hot like as if we’re in the sauna especially on the dance floor. My dear friend Ryn came late so she didn’t get the chance to enter. It was also partly my fault, because when she reached she tried calling me 3 times but I didn’t answer the call because I left it in my back like I always do because I’m scared that I will lose it knowing that I am careless. Lucky she managed to get hold of Bob but by the time he told me, she was already gone, waiting in her car together with Omar wanting to go somewhere else just for a drink. I couldn’t persuade her to come back and I will get you in, because I cannot guarantee that she will be able to enter, moreover she was with someone else. Even hose regular drinking customers who opens bottle every weekend can’t bring people in, even worst if it was me. On the other end, Hannah with her bunch of friends insisted on waiting so they queued up and waited for quite some time but they managed to get in at last! So the hard work queuing up paid off at last. LOL! After that, Ijan came and we just enjoyed throughout the whole night. I was dead f**king tired by the time everything ended because I was practically awake for 24 hours. From 7 morning on Friday till 7 morning on Saturday. Reached home, bathe and straight to bed.

I don't understand how some people can be so selfish. Do they ever thought about how other people feels? I hate it when priority is given to the same person and the rest just have to follow. I hate it when people think differently about you. And I hate it most when people say you are just the same when you do not know what is it really about.

A New Comeback

Yes, I have been missing since the last post in this blog. I am now starting to blog again because I'm so blardy boring. I am completing my industrial training in some company in Tropicana Damansara for 3 full months. It seems so long because everyday there is nothing to be done here. My daily routine in the office is just surfing the net and of course blogging. Sometimes, I will given some task to do and I do it fast cause I am so boring that I get excited when there is SOMETHING to do. Since the first day of work (24th Nov 2008), I only did 2 things, one is assisting in counting and checking the amount of valves in some drawing which is so complicated and small and the second one was doing an assignment to find out why the company prefers DCS control system more than PLC control system. I'm still working on that actually. I was so bored that most of the time, I surf the net more than finding out the reason why. My supervisor hand to me 4 proposals so find the answer to his question. 2 are the proposals for DCS and the other 2 are for PLC. (P/S: anyone out there who are reading this post, please advice me why is it better? FYI this company processes chemical stuff)

The first day was still OK. I manage to burn off time because I followed another supervisor to their site in Klang. So he took me around and explained to me many things which I think would help me a lot in my report writing later on. I need to do this report fast and detailed because next semester is my last semester and I want to graduate in September! I don't want to wait for another year just because of this damn industrial training report and not because I failed another subject! OK, so moving on, I was issued a safety boots which looks funny cause they look rough at the same time small because my foot is small and I look hilarious with their white safety cap. Lucky I didn't take any picture of me wearing like that. Maybe no one can recognize me too. Well, half the day I was already there and by the time I reach this office in Tropicana, it was already 3pm, so means I have another 2 hours and 45 minutes and then off I go. By the way, the working time here for me is from 8.30 am to 5.45 pm and the best part is, I'm only paid RM300. Another thing is that, I only have 45 minutes of lunch which is from 12.30pm till 1.15pm. Oh my god, I mean no offense, this company is a public listed company, yes they are good but I am just a trainee. Even if they only pay me RM300 I am still ok with it but I have nothing much to do here and they make me work longer hours than any other company and they only give me 45 minutes of lunch break! The worst part, I have to work for 12 freaking weeks.

All because of the damn Monash Engineering Law which states that students must undergo an industrial training of a total of 12 weeks in order to graduate. So meaning even if you do well for your exams, but you haven't complete your training, you won't get to graduate at all until you do your training. There are pros and cons the school came up with this idea. Well generally they wanted the students to have a feel what is it like being in the real world of engineers which is good but the thing is just being a trainee for 3 months is too short of a period, mostly nothing much will be learnt because usually, they are too busy to care much about you, and even if they want to give you something to do, it will be plain office paper work. They can't afford to involve you in a big huge project which will cost damn millions if we fail to commit. Anyway, I think they should make it optional for students whether or not they want to undergo the training or not.

The second working day, I followed another supervisor for another meeting. By the way, I have a total of 4 supervisors. Going to back to what I just typed, yes, another meeting which was a discussion with their vendor on what they require if the project is being given to that vendor. Anyway, he wanted me to learn something so he just asked me to follow in. What I did there was just sitting down on a comfortable chair, smiling and listening to their conversation. The whole time, I felt like as if I'm just a doll there! Lol! Anyway, today is already Friday, finally 1 week gone and 11 more to go.

My New T2

I went to PC Fair last Saturday and got myself a new camera which I've been crazing for, for months. Finally, I got it and it's a good deal also! RM1300 with a free ODM watch which costs easily RM400. Since now I have a new camera, I can now start loading more pics in already. Especially in my facebook since some friends complaining why got no new pictures in it.

I'm still learning to use my new cam. So many applications I'm getting blur already! LOL! Anyway, it's a nice white camera. Supposedly, I wanted to get the metallic blue colour, but then since the free watch that comes with it has to blue also and the blue want is so ugly, so I don't have the choice to choose the white instead. Nevermind, it's nice also. LOL!

A Wonderful Bali Holiday

When to Bali for 5 days 4 nights and it was a wonderful holiday despite my bad cough. We stayed in 3 different hotels. 2 different hotels in Kuta and one hotel in Ubud. Drink, smoke and shop alot and also got burned because I was to lazy to put on the sun block lotion when I went to the beach. Went to Hard Rock Cafe on Tuesday night and Thursday night to watch my friends from a band perform. Bought quite a lot of things. 5 tops, 3 bottoms, 1 dress, 6 pairs of slippers and some other accessories. When there with one bag, came back with 2. It's normal lar anyway if you go to some place which is like a shopping paradise.

Me and Chin Huang also went to want bar in Legian. It's called Apache Bar. Nice environment. Drank their Bintang local beer which was darn cheap and nice and smoke like one whole box of 20s Lucky Strike menthol. The nikotine contain was lower as compared to KL and the price was super low also. After converting to MYR is only RM 3+. My goodness!

Visited some very beautiful places like Tanah Lot and Kintamani where the volcano is. Tanah Lot is a very very beautiful place. The scenery there is superb. If you were to go to Bali for holidays, never miss out visiting Tanah Lot!

Many events happened there, visited so many places and did so many things but I'm just lazy to blog about it. I know I should have put up some pics but then cuz I don't own a camera yet (which I'm hoping to own one soon) so I'm also lazy to get it from CH camera and load it here. Maybe next time lar.

In short, Bali is a nice place to go for holidays and for shopping especially if you're someone who likes brands like Roxy, Quiksilver, Ripcurl, Billabong, Surfer's Girl and etc. Besides those who like surfing, they should not miss out Bali. I wanted to learn to surf, but because i haven't recover from my sprained ankle which I sprained 2 weeks ago, I couldn't learn how to surf. It's ok, hopefully next year I can go there again!

Easy/Difficult

It's Easy to get a place in someone's address book
It's Difficult to get a place in someone's heart

It's Easy to judge the mistakes of others
It's Difficult to recognize our own mistakes

It's Easy to talk without thinking
It's Difficult to refrain the tongue

It's Easy to hurt someone who loves us
It's Difficult to heal the wound

It's Easy to forgive others
It's Difficult to ask for forgiveness

It's Easy to set rules
It's Difficult to follow them

It's Easy to dream every night
It's Difficult to fight for a dream

It's Easy to show victory
It's Difficult to assume defeat with dignity

It's Easy to admire a full moon
It's Difficult to see the other side

It's Easy to stumble with a stone
It's Difficult to get up

It's Easy to enjoy life everyday
It's Difficult to give it's real value

It's Easy to promise something to someone
It's Difficult to fulfill that promise

It's Easy to say we love
It's Difficult to show it everyday

It's Easy criticize others
It's Difficult to improve oneself

It's Easy to make mistakes
It's Difficult to learn from them

It's Easy to weep for a lost love
It's Difficult to take care of it so not to lose it

It's Easy to think about improving
It's Difficult to stop thinking about it and put it into action

It's Easy to think bad of others
It's Difficult to give them the benefit of the doubt

It's Easy to receive
It's Difficult to give

It's Easy to read this
It's Difficult to follow

It's Easy to keep the friendship with words
It's Difficult to keep it with meanings

It's true when you read everything that is stated above. Why is it difficult for us to do all this?

I Feared

I feared being alone until I learned to like myself

I feared failure until I realized that I only fail if I don't try

I feared success until I realized I had to try in order to be happy with myself

I feared people's opinion until I learned that people will have opinions about me anyway

I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself

I feared pain until I learned that it is necessary for growth

I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies

I feared life until I experienced it's beauty

I feared death until I realized is not an end, but a beginning

I feared my destiny until I realized I had the power to change my life

I feared hate until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance

I feared love until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days

I feared ridicule until I learned how to laugh at myself

I feared growing old until I realized that I gained wisdom everyday

I feared the future until I realized that life just kept getting better

I feared the past until I realized that it could no longer hurt me

I feared the dark until I saw the beauty of the starlight

I feared the light until I learned that the truth will give me strength

I feared change until I saw even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly

I hope now to find the meaning of life so that I can gain more happiness everyday

Presentation over

Yes! It's over. I'm done with it! But I still have another 2 reports to finish and 1 assignment to be done. I'm now in the micro P lab demo-ing my lab test which I did long time ago. Now I'm scared that mine won't work. Gosh!!!!!

Laughter the Best Medicine

There's this guy in Uni that practically everyone of us avoids. He is one, that you wonder, what the hell is he doing studying engineering in Monash. He always carry a huge back pack, with lots of books in his hands however, he don't seem to score as good as we think he would. No offense, not that I'm saying that he is stupid of what, cause I myself is not that great though, but then, I don't give the impression to people that I am a studious type of girl. Anyway, talking about this post "title", let me tell you a story.

All of us, practically our gang, is always in the project lab on Tuesdays to do our project. One of my friend who is not in the same group as I am, was also avoiding this guy I'm talking about. He wanted to go over another side by sitting on the roller chair by just pushing it, however, while going over to the other side, halfway when he saw that guy, he started to go back to his place where he came from. His expression on his face really made me laugh out loud. Oh my, you should be there to watch this scenario. If only I could record it.

And I remembered once, there was another friend of mine. We were suppose to tour around the new Uni (which is now already officially open) after out exams. While touring, of course we'll drop by the computer labs to check it out. So in one of the computer labs, we were there surfing around, when suddenly my friend came in. He was properly sat behind me, till suddenly, I heard a rushing sound, a sound where someone was trying to hide quickly from something. After few minutes, he came back up, saying, is he gone? is he gone? I wonder who was that, till he told me, that guy lar! Ohok! Understood. Another time he was also hiding behind the walls because of him. So much for avoiding him, while my friend came down the stairs looking somewhere else talking to another friend, out of nowhere, that guy appeared right behind him! When my friend turned to look, he got a shock of his life. His expression then also left me laughing out loud. I laugh till I got stomach ache lar! Hahahahahahaha!!!! I laugh so much, because I watch the whole incident happened, as I was standing somewhere near them and watch that guy slowly walking towards my friend. Gosh, poor him. Sometimes to think about him , I really pity him, however, knowing his attitude like that, I can't blame people from avoiding him!

Report Week

This whole week, I've only be working on report since last Saturday. If not reports, then assignments, got no time to start studying yet. Oh no! Finals is in a months time, maybe a few days lesser. It starts on the 6th and ends on the 12th. Though I can't wait for it to end, however, I also don't want it to start. Anyway, the time will come soon though, SO I better get started as soon as I can.

Movies pending, Resident Evil Extinction, The Seeker: The Dark Is Rising and Knocked Up. When will I have the time to watch these movies? A friend of mine invited me to watch Resident Evil Extinction with her bunch of friends who are also in Engineering, but I don't really know them well, this Thursday night, but I rejected cause I have to wait for my gang to watch. So, if my gang decided to leave me out, I'm going to kill them! HAHA.

CSI Addict

Recently, I'm addicted to the CSI's series, especially CSI NY and CSI Miami. Every Monday, I will definitely sit down in front of the TV from 8pm till 11pm. Haha. Yes I know I noticed how nice CSI is so late, but nevermind it's OK.

Hate Me

This song keeps singing in my mind lately.

(If you're sleeping are you dreamingI
f your dreaming are you dreaming of me?I
can't believe you actually picked me.)

(”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you ware doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded
like you were nervous, too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and...
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye”)

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you.
Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

[Children voices:]
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can't believe you actually picked me

People around us

When I was much younger, my mum used to tell me, never trust any friends around you. You can have good friends and close friends, but you must not let them know too much about your personal life. I don't believe her last time, but now, I know why.

Everytime when I think I had a really good friends I can rely on, I realise I would lose it one day. Real close friends never did lasted around me. Maybe I'm fated to be a lone ranger. Since I was born I was already fated to be the one and only child in the family, and I guess that's the reason why. Or maybe I'm having an attitude problem which cause people to stay away from me. Damn that!

21 years living in this "journey of life" is not an easy one. My years might still be young, but I have been through what a 25 year old adult been through. I might sound emo, but it's true. I share some of my experiences with some of my friends who are older than me and they are surprised to listen to my stories cuz some never even had that experienced before. Sometimes I feel like as if I've live for ages already. Haha. Just joking.

As I grow older, I realise people around us, are just faking. It's difficult nowadays to find one who is really true. I'm serious! Because, I have already seen many. Even myself, sometimes I also fake. I admit, but I try not to do it so often since I myself dislike "fakers"(is there such word?). Sometimes is hard to blame why people are so fake nowadays, since the world itself is also turning fake. Everyone have no choice but to be the worst people in the world to survive in this era.

I am really pissed with people who looks down on me. Yes I am not as smart as you guys, I am not as hardworking as you guys, I am a total failure in Uni whereas you guys always score so damn great, but let me tell you ONE thing, listen and READ this "I might be a loser and failure in Uni, but once I graduate and start working, I will definitely beat those who even has honours or masters in their certificate!". MARK MY WORDS. Don't think that if your great in studies you will be great in the working life!! And once when I succeed in my working life, don't come running to me asking for help, cuz I don't help and don't do a favour for those who look down on me or those who treat me like a piece of shit! Doesn't mean if you don't tell me that you look down on me, don't think I do not know it, I might be stupid in studies, but I'm not stupid in reading what people think about me!

Crazy people doing crazy things

I am on a one week break now. So far, it had not really been a really great one, but a CRAZY one though. Started of on Friday, my ball night, I found it boring, so I left to Hard Rock early, around 10 something. The ball was held in Mandarin Oriental, KL. It was not bad lar actually, just that my group of friends weren't there, that's why it made me bored. I was tag along to go together with Su-Lyn and Ling Ying, I felt sorry for them as I left earlier, and the both of them are stranded there and waiting for someone to fetch them back. Lucky for Ling Ying, that her dad is willing to fetch her back at 11pm, however Su-Lyn, had to wait for another friend to fetch her back, so she had to suffer the boringness for a longer time. Poor her.

The next day, Saturday, I went back to Klang, since it had been a long time I didn't not go back already. I stayed in Klang till Wednesday, and only came back up today. The original plan was to come back up to Sunway on Wednesday, however, my vrazy friends CH, Alex, WW and Halim, after watching the movie Skinwalker in The Curve, out of no where, someone said, let's go genting, oh my god, I thought they were just kidding at first, but they weren't. At 5pm they decided to go genting, we went home, pack out things, met up at 8pm and left to genting. WW drove up his bro's Wish up, while going up the highlands, Alex took over and drove all the way up since he's better! Haha. Anyway, reach genting around 10pm, check in the hotel, went for dinner, then walk around the cold breeze outside in the dark. Quite scary. The tadaaaa!!! it was my first time entering the Casino, since I am already officially 21. Haha. I won lar, but not much. But proud though, first time entering and I won! Haha. It's just good luck lar!

Anyway, we didn't had much sleep, cuz we spent quite a long time in the casino, except for Halim and WW they both did not enter. Left genting the next day around 11am++ and reach Klang around 4pm after seeing the doctor again. For god sake, it's the third time in 2 weeks I visited the doctor. Enough! I need to be more careful in what I eat, cuz my throat is killing me.

Unwell

Nothing to blog about cuz I'm not in the mood. I'msick and feeling weak. That's all you guys need to know!

BUMMER!

MicroP exam just over this morning. It was supposed to be a 1 hour 45 minutes lab exam but instead it become a 2 hours plus test. And because of that, our written exam will be postponed till to be advised. Gosh non of us finished it. It was quite difficult as compared to last semester (how i knnew, cause I fail that sub last sem). Now out lecturer is deciding whether to give us another test, cuz he doesn't wants to fail us. Please I just hope for the best.

Every morning when I wake up, I feel very sleepy and always said to myself, what ever plan I plan for, I'm not gonna do it. But after bathing with icy cold water, and feeling more fresh, I'll do anything and sometimes even more that what I planned to do. Half a year ago I use to bathe with hot water because there was heater, but last month, I started bathing with cold water because the plug got burn and couldn't work anymore. Don't know what happen to it, stupid plug even the fius is not working if not, it wouldn't make a hole into the power point. The whole apartment was smelly everytime afetr I bathe, I didn't know why until 2 days later. I realised that the apertment always had this burned smell after I bathe, so one fine day, I decided to find out what was it, I followed the wire, and then there it was, the plug has melted. THANK GOD the apartment didn't blew up! God Bless Me!

Anyway, coming back to where I was, yeah, one down, 2 more to go. One this coming Saturday and another is to be advised.